without them, the world grows dark around you
i'm sorry, yet again. i know, i've been uber busy lately.
kismet was absolutely amazing. i have had the best summer because of it. i don't know what i would have done all summer without it. its been my socializing, my life. i just ... love it. amazingg. and now i miss it. especially dave and john and rachel and katie ... but i get to see rachel and katie tomorrow, so its all good.
and dave ... dave is more different to me than any other person i have ever met. maybe because he's one of those people that i cannot read easily at all. i actually quite suck at reading him except for if i can see him and feel his emotional vibe. that's about all i get. and he's like talek. who has really sunk low. *sighs* i don't know about my friends anymore. dave is amazing though. and he's ... probably less attached to me than i am to him, but i don't care. and he may be ... no, i cannot say that yet. i am suppose to talk to him today ... and hear what he has to say. i am being defensively optimistic. i'm ready for the turndown and the beg for friendship, or i am ready for him to ask me out. even g.s. saw us together. i dunno g.s., we'll see what happens.
and then there's this thing where ... i'm stuck. ap nglish work is not getting done, and it needs to be. auditions are in a little more than a week; and school is in a little more than 2.
i don't know what else i should or hafta say.
kismet was absolutely amazing. i have had the best summer because of it. i don't know what i would have done all summer without it. its been my socializing, my life. i just ... love it. amazingg. and now i miss it. especially dave and john and rachel and katie ... but i get to see rachel and katie tomorrow, so its all good.
and dave ... dave is more different to me than any other person i have ever met. maybe because he's one of those people that i cannot read easily at all. i actually quite suck at reading him except for if i can see him and feel his emotional vibe. that's about all i get. and he's like talek. who has really sunk low. *sighs* i don't know about my friends anymore. dave is amazing though. and he's ... probably less attached to me than i am to him, but i don't care. and he may be ... no, i cannot say that yet. i am suppose to talk to him today ... and hear what he has to say. i am being defensively optimistic. i'm ready for the turndown and the beg for friendship, or i am ready for him to ask me out. even g.s. saw us together. i dunno g.s., we'll see what happens.
and then there's this thing where ... i'm stuck. ap nglish work is not getting done, and it needs to be. auditions are in a little more than a week; and school is in a little more than 2.
i don't know what else i should or hafta say.