so i wait for the day to have the courage to say how much i love you
so, if you read that last entry ... here's the addition to it. countinuing from 3 am. or abouts.
text message convo between me and sam.
Sam: ya know, i kinda felt close to you tonight
me: i felt close to you too. oh, and btw, all the kids think we should be a couple, accorrding to my mom
Sam: mmhmmm
me: mhm? what does that mean?
Sam: i don't know ;)
me: i don't want to get my hopes up here about anything or make this weird. but, what are you really thinking about tonight?
Sam: im not sure. my mind's going in 5 diff directions. but 1 part wants friendship and another wants that relationship. idk
me: im not pushing you either way. you know where i stand. take your time. just know that you make me really happy
sam: ok :)
me: im going to bed. by that i mean, smiling and not sleeping at all. Goodnight!
Sam: goodnight, sweet dreams
EEEEEEEEEEE. but then i found out something today that deflated it a bit. and i don't want to post it cause ... well, frankly its none of my business either. but still. i know i shouldn't get my hope up. talek's right on that account. he has hurt me before. but, i don't want to think that way. ive been so happy. no matter how much my mother has beaten up on me today. and i had a nice sex talk with talek ... no, not a dirty one. it was good. and i love talking to sarah too.
text message convo between me and sam.
Sam: ya know, i kinda felt close to you tonight
me: i felt close to you too. oh, and btw, all the kids think we should be a couple, accorrding to my mom
Sam: mmhmmm
me: mhm? what does that mean?
Sam: i don't know ;)
me: i don't want to get my hopes up here about anything or make this weird. but, what are you really thinking about tonight?
Sam: im not sure. my mind's going in 5 diff directions. but 1 part wants friendship and another wants that relationship. idk
me: im not pushing you either way. you know where i stand. take your time. just know that you make me really happy
sam: ok :)
me: im going to bed. by that i mean, smiling and not sleeping at all. Goodnight!
Sam: goodnight, sweet dreams
EEEEEEEEEEE. but then i found out something today that deflated it a bit. and i don't want to post it cause ... well, frankly its none of my business either. but still. i know i shouldn't get my hope up. talek's right on that account. he has hurt me before. but, i don't want to think that way. ive been so happy. no matter how much my mother has beaten up on me today. and i had a nice sex talk with talek ... no, not a dirty one. it was good. and i love talking to sarah too.