i don't quite know how to say how i feel; those 3 words are said too much ... THEY'RE NOT ENOUGH!!!
EEEEEEEEEEEEE. OMG, I AM EXCITED. tonight was amazing. absolutely amazing.
so i straightened my hair for it. katelyn didn;t tell me she was going snowboarding, but i straightened my hair without her. and, i looked amazing. EEEEEE.
and then we get to the party. and it was just ... pandemonium. and i got toys thrown at me. and one went in my shirtt. and mom made a comment about jordan's ulterior motives. ewww. but continuing. so yea, and then food was thrown at me. and then jordan left. and that's when it gets best. i had sam to myself. we sat there, watching star wars and talking. and jeffery turns to us and goes, "are you a couple? you would make one." and omg, we just sat there talking and talking. i love sam's voice. i must say that. and then we went and sat on chairs all pressed up against one another and was all ... AWWWW. and we talked alot. and ther was a moment when he was like ... flipping though his phone numbers and was like i like emily, she's cool, or something to that effect. and i kinda made a face. and then he went home to get stuff to sleep over robert's. and then when he came back, we sat on the loveseat together, all pressed up against one another. and talked. and watched tv. and we were looking at each other like ... lovers? no, but there was a promise in those eyes. there was a chance that i could have him. there is one, excuse me. i hope anyway. and again jeffery was like, you two are made to be the perfect couple. just go out already. and then ... we went upstairs to play xbox. and like ... 10 mins later, i had to leave. and i kissed his cheek ... and was like, i don't want to go, and turned away. and he grabbed me, and hugged me and RIGHT NEXT TO MY EAR, so close i could feel his breath, he said i don't want you to go either. and he held me. and ... i don't know if im making too big of a deal out of this or not. but if i am, then what the hell does this all mean? there were points where i thought he might have kissed me. there were points where we were so close. and i just wanted to stay. so much. i want him. so much.
i think i can wear him down. i just want him. and we were texting after i left. and i think i made him happy tonight too.
so i straightened my hair for it. katelyn didn;t tell me she was going snowboarding, but i straightened my hair without her. and, i looked amazing. EEEEEE.
and then we get to the party. and it was just ... pandemonium. and i got toys thrown at me. and one went in my shirtt. and mom made a comment about jordan's ulterior motives. ewww. but continuing. so yea, and then food was thrown at me. and then jordan left. and that's when it gets best. i had sam to myself. we sat there, watching star wars and talking. and jeffery turns to us and goes, "are you a couple? you would make one." and omg, we just sat there talking and talking. i love sam's voice. i must say that. and then we went and sat on chairs all pressed up against one another and was all ... AWWWW. and we talked alot. and ther was a moment when he was like ... flipping though his phone numbers and was like i like emily, she's cool, or something to that effect. and i kinda made a face. and then he went home to get stuff to sleep over robert's. and then when he came back, we sat on the loveseat together, all pressed up against one another. and talked. and watched tv. and we were looking at each other like ... lovers? no, but there was a promise in those eyes. there was a chance that i could have him. there is one, excuse me. i hope anyway. and again jeffery was like, you two are made to be the perfect couple. just go out already. and then ... we went upstairs to play xbox. and like ... 10 mins later, i had to leave. and i kissed his cheek ... and was like, i don't want to go, and turned away. and he grabbed me, and hugged me and RIGHT NEXT TO MY EAR, so close i could feel his breath, he said i don't want you to go either. and he held me. and ... i don't know if im making too big of a deal out of this or not. but if i am, then what the hell does this all mean? there were points where i thought he might have kissed me. there were points where we were so close. and i just wanted to stay. so much. i want him. so much.
i think i can wear him down. i just want him. and we were texting after i left. and i think i made him happy tonight too.