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I'm really not well.
Since saturday I've been on metformin for this blood sugar marlarky and it's making me really sick.
I woke up this morning feeling ill but I decided to go into uni anyway because I needed to find out what I'm supposed to do for my project. I found out. That lesson finished at 11 and then the next wasn't untill 2.30. By that time I felt at least 23 times worse then I did before so I decided to go home. Fuck staying around for 3 and a half hours.
Went to the train station and got on the train and felt like I was going to throw up or die or both at the same time. I was cold but I was hot. I couldn't stand it much longer so I had to get off a few stops early and run to the toilet. Went back up to the platform and then I had a 20 minute wait for the next train. It was so cold and I was in so much pain and I was starting to shiver. I was on the verge of tears standing there. Managed not to cry and got on the train and then my dad picked me up from the station.
Got in at 1 and went straight to bed untill 5. I've been close to tears many times since then. It's only a matter of time until I can't not cry anymore today. Mostly because I know I have so much to do but I can't do it because I feel like shite and it's making me really frustrated. That's when I cry.
Worst part is that I still have to carry on with the medication because this could just be me getting used to it. I have to take the tablets with food twice a day but I feel so sick that I don't want to eat, but I have to eat, and if I eat I have to take the tablets to control the sugars. So it's like a horrible loop of hell. I either do both, or none at all.
So I had dinner about an hour ago and a tablet and now I'm starting to feel sick again. Eurgh.
I'm not gonna take it over this weekend or the next. I have the xfm Winterwonderland on Sunday and Foo Fighters on the Saturday after and I'm not risking feeling like shit for those because I've been looking forward to them for months.
Well this was my first journal for a while. Sorry it wasn't a happy one.
Since saturday I've been on metformin for this blood sugar marlarky and it's making me really sick.
I woke up this morning feeling ill but I decided to go into uni anyway because I needed to find out what I'm supposed to do for my project. I found out. That lesson finished at 11 and then the next wasn't untill 2.30. By that time I felt at least 23 times worse then I did before so I decided to go home. Fuck staying around for 3 and a half hours.
Went to the train station and got on the train and felt like I was going to throw up or die or both at the same time. I was cold but I was hot. I couldn't stand it much longer so I had to get off a few stops early and run to the toilet. Went back up to the platform and then I had a 20 minute wait for the next train. It was so cold and I was in so much pain and I was starting to shiver. I was on the verge of tears standing there. Managed not to cry and got on the train and then my dad picked me up from the station.
Got in at 1 and went straight to bed untill 5. I've been close to tears many times since then. It's only a matter of time until I can't not cry anymore today. Mostly because I know I have so much to do but I can't do it because I feel like shite and it's making me really frustrated. That's when I cry.
Worst part is that I still have to carry on with the medication because this could just be me getting used to it. I have to take the tablets with food twice a day but I feel so sick that I don't want to eat, but I have to eat, and if I eat I have to take the tablets to control the sugars. So it's like a horrible loop of hell. I either do both, or none at all.
So I had dinner about an hour ago and a tablet and now I'm starting to feel sick again. Eurgh.
I'm not gonna take it over this weekend or the next. I have the xfm Winterwonderland on Sunday and Foo Fighters on the Saturday after and I'm not risking feeling like shit for those because I've been looking forward to them for months.
Well this was my first journal for a while. Sorry it wasn't a happy one.