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livejournal has become like a battelfield....
and i think im waving the white flag...i refuse to participate in the war of words with hidden meanings....
me jon and megan have some fucked up drama going on..if anyone wants to discuss it then come to me and talk to me about this shit...
now im getting back to what livejournal is used for....a journal
wow what a fucking suprise.!!!!
these past few days have been a rush of emotions...its funny how you change so much...in the beginning of the year i was a good little christian boi! wtf thats not adam at all....you know its hard to find out who adam really is when he bends to every new things he sees....all i know is that i am on God's side...sometimes i am convinced that i am pure evil with the things i do and think and feel..but then i realize that this must be human emotion....human emotion and life are wierd things..they arnt like science and math... no one can teach you how to feel them...so everytime a new one comes about it scares the shit out of you and confuses you.....
i bet alot of people look at adam and say..that kind has broken alot of hearts and probably doesnt care...i have dated alot of girls...im not gonna lie...but i have not broken a single heart without feeling the pain 10 times worse latter in life.....i have had everything i loved ripped from my bleeding hands more than once and it hurts more and more everythime.....
i think that multiple personalities exsist in everyone,....and everyone is bi polar...everyone feels this change of feelings frequently....i have another side to adam,....his name is loki...some of you know him and some dont...he is pure chaos and mischeif...but how can he be denyed...he was supressed for so long in my period of wanting to go to church and be in love with nicole that he is litterally ripping through my fucking skin....its confusing...i want to be good but he doesnt,...and he is me
so people i have concluded....dont hide or supress feelings...feel this life to the fullest and explore new feelings all the time...dont be afraid to step in the deep end every once in a while...because if you start to drown then someone is always right behind you to pick you up..wether you see them or not.
you know i luv you all and i miss all my friends that i dont see anymore...and if i have ever told you that i love you then i still mean it and if i have never told you that i love you, then this is the time that yuou should realize that i love you because you are a peice of my life....
and i think im waving the white flag...i refuse to participate in the war of words with hidden meanings....
me jon and megan have some fucked up drama going on..if anyone wants to discuss it then come to me and talk to me about this shit...
now im getting back to what livejournal is used for....a journal
wow what a fucking suprise.!!!!
these past few days have been a rush of emotions...its funny how you change so much...in the beginning of the year i was a good little christian boi! wtf thats not adam at all....you know its hard to find out who adam really is when he bends to every new things he sees....all i know is that i am on God's side...sometimes i am convinced that i am pure evil with the things i do and think and feel..but then i realize that this must be human emotion....human emotion and life are wierd things..they arnt like science and math... no one can teach you how to feel them...so everytime a new one comes about it scares the shit out of you and confuses you.....
i bet alot of people look at adam and say..that kind has broken alot of hearts and probably doesnt care...i have dated alot of girls...im not gonna lie...but i have not broken a single heart without feeling the pain 10 times worse latter in life.....i have had everything i loved ripped from my bleeding hands more than once and it hurts more and more everythime.....
i think that multiple personalities exsist in everyone,....and everyone is bi polar...everyone feels this change of feelings frequently....i have another side to adam,....his name is loki...some of you know him and some dont...he is pure chaos and mischeif...but how can he be denyed...he was supressed for so long in my period of wanting to go to church and be in love with nicole that he is litterally ripping through my fucking skin....its confusing...i want to be good but he doesnt,...and he is me
so people i have concluded....dont hide or supress feelings...feel this life to the fullest and explore new feelings all the time...dont be afraid to step in the deep end every once in a while...because if you start to drown then someone is always right behind you to pick you up..wether you see them or not.
you know i luv you all and i miss all my friends that i dont see anymore...and if i have ever told you that i love you then i still mean it and if i have never told you that i love you, then this is the time that yuou should realize that i love you because you are a peice of my life....