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Freya leaves today. I've been near tears all day. It's the last thing to really confirm that I left.
I made the right decision, though. I'm gonna do my best to get better. But first, I have to make it through the next month or so. And I don't know how I'm going to do it. I'm going up and down so swiftly with my emotions. I'll be ok one moment, then but mentally beating myself and near tears the next.
I wish I was back to myself. I'm so exhausted from fighting myself and being so wrapped up in myself. I'm scared that I don't have the strength to make it. Or to change. And I want to give up so much. I'm just tired of this all. And I'm tired of no one being able to hold me. And no one has told me that it's going to be ok.
I don't think I believe in anything anymore. Especially not me.
I made the right decision, though. I'm gonna do my best to get better. But first, I have to make it through the next month or so. And I don't know how I'm going to do it. I'm going up and down so swiftly with my emotions. I'll be ok one moment, then but mentally beating myself and near tears the next.
I wish I was back to myself. I'm so exhausted from fighting myself and being so wrapped up in myself. I'm scared that I don't have the strength to make it. Or to change. And I want to give up so much. I'm just tired of this all. And I'm tired of no one being able to hold me. And no one has told me that it's going to be ok.
I don't think I believe in anything anymore. Especially not me.