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[x_kimura_x]

Wow, I've never had someone actually dislike me to the point where they told someone they wanted to kill me. Which is find odd. Last time I saw her, she was really nice to me and we hung out, went shopping. True, she and her fiancee broke up. True, I did move into their apartment when she left. Also true, I'd be homeless if I hadn't of moved in. I feel a bit awkward. But I'm not a threat at all, I don't understand why she would think that. I'm not gonna sleep with him, cuz well, that's not happening with anyone for a while. I'm not pretty, while she's gorgeous. I'm working and trying to keep my head above water mentally and with my whole life.
I feel rather empty and like I'm going nowhere all of a sudden. I just keep wondering what my future is going to be, and I have no clue at the moment and this is the first time where I haven't been so busy that I don't have time to think about it.
I just wanna shake my head at myself because I'm so messed up.