I used to think I could wait forever..now I just can't do it anymore.
He fuckin called me today...he asked if he could stop by my Dad's house...I should have said no. I should have said no! But I didn't...and when he was there, I jus couldn't look at him. It jus hurts too much when I do. Then he promised me that he would come and pick me up so we could watch a movie at his house...did he call? Nope. Again there I was...putting everything in my life on hold...and it's all for him. I was fine for 3 days not thinking about him at alllllll...and he calls me. He ruined everything. I started crying, and felt like shit.. I'm back at square one.
But Antonio called me, and made me feel a lot better. =D He said he would call me tomorrow, so maybe I'll see him. Should I be hopeful?
Went to Katie's...talked to her about a lot...I love her. I always know I can talk to her about anything. Thanks soo much. I felt so alone today too, and she was jus what I needed. =)
More problems are floating around in my head once again...but no solutions.
Didn't really eat anything today. I didn't eat dinner..and all I had was a bowl of strawberries. I feel good. =)
Watched some fireworks outside. Woooo hooo. Not.
I gotta go take a shower, and work out. Later Alligators.
<3
"All the words you never say to me..they mean less and less to me everyday."