All the words you never say...they mean less and less to me everyday.
Alrite soo today:
Got up early again...my grandma woke me up. Were gonna go visit her tomorrow. =)
Talked to my Mom...um yea. More making me feel guilty and manipulating processes.
My Dad had something to take care of, and I didn't want to come with so he took us to my Mom's house and I spent some quality time with my kitty. I miss him. As retarded as that sounds...but I really do. =(
After spending time with him, I got drunk a little with some friends. Had some beers, and drank a whole bottle of "pUckEr". It was gooodd man.
Randy was supposed to come over so we could talk, but he didn't so that shows how much he really cares. But what could I really expect, I mean come on. I can't get all upset over somone whos never gonna change. But it's not just like that for you Randy..it's like that for every guy. So don't take full blame. Asshole.
Called him. But his friend answered and some other shit, and he didn't call back. Ah, whatever. It was a mistake to call him anyways. I was jus buzzed. That's what happens when I get that way. You know.
My Dad came and picked us up, and he was trying to have a conversation with me but I couldn't figure out a way to word a sentence correctly so I just kept my mouth shut. Haha. =D
I did some other bad shit while at my Mom's but that's stuff only for the ears not for the eyes.
Hurt myself again today. Poor Poor me. O well. I keep hoping I'll bleed to death, jus to end all this shit. That way no one will have to worry about me. Not that anyone really does.
I'm getting sleepy fast, and I was thinking about taking tylenol p.m but I can't because I've been drinking, and I'll O.D if I do. There's a good way of trying to kill yourself..O wait I've already done that..ahahhahaha!
Well I hope everyone has a great weekend...get drunk and have fun!
I'm outta here later gators.
<3
"If there ever comes a time when I won't be there, I hope you have the time to find someone else to abuse.
No I won't be there.
I'am not a fool. "