and then i realized.....
i'm really pissed beacause i fucked myself over so bad......
i really miss melmo.i need her here more than anything to tell me that it's going to be okay......shes my best friend and she knows me better than i know myself....and i miss her more than anything.i love you melmo and i'm going to send you some shit soon k?i love the card you sent me it was wonderful i'm glad you were thinking of me and that card was just what i needed to make me smile.i hope you come to see me really REALLY soon....maybe you can make it down for warped tour........i doubt it...but maybe.
and then...
theres this boy.....this amazingly perfect boy in which i love more than anything.i'm so intimidated to talk to him but i always get up the courage to IM him but when he doesnt respond what clicks in my mind is "omfg he hates me" instead of "he probobly just doesnt want to talk" and because i have the wrong idea i freak out on myself......which isn't very cool.but then there are those times when he does respond and it feels like the best thing in the world and my heart starts beating 6574654198468768798 beats a second and its just like....pure happiness.....something i havent felt for awhile.
well i think im gonna probobly try and sleep.......
-shannon.
i really miss melmo.i need her here more than anything to tell me that it's going to be okay......shes my best friend and she knows me better than i know myself....and i miss her more than anything.i love you melmo and i'm going to send you some shit soon k?i love the card you sent me it was wonderful i'm glad you were thinking of me and that card was just what i needed to make me smile.i hope you come to see me really REALLY soon....maybe you can make it down for warped tour........i doubt it...but maybe.
and then...
theres this boy.....this amazingly perfect boy in which i love more than anything.i'm so intimidated to talk to him but i always get up the courage to IM him but when he doesnt respond what clicks in my mind is "omfg he hates me" instead of "he probobly just doesnt want to talk" and because i have the wrong idea i freak out on myself......which isn't very cool.but then there are those times when he does respond and it feels like the best thing in the world and my heart starts beating 6574654198468768798 beats a second and its just like....pure happiness.....something i havent felt for awhile.
well i think im gonna probobly try and sleep.......
-shannon.