I mostly just want to disappear. I want you all to forget I exist. I want to forget I exist. I wish I could start my life over and do everything differently. All of this pain and uncertainty just wasn't worth it.
It's moments like this we realize our mortality and contemplate our lives. Fuck that. I wish I were too young, naive, or just plain stupid. This understanding of the world cripples me in ways I could have never predicted.
"tryna catch me ridin' dirty" WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN? WHY IS IT POPULAR? WHO THE FUCK SINGS THIS ASSHOLE OF A SONG? WHY DO I WANT TO KILL MYSELF WHEN I HEAR IT? FUCK THE SONG. FUCK THE GODDAMN SONG. I'M GOING TO DOWNLOAD IT, BURN IT ONTO A CD, AND SET IT ON FIRE! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!