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I just simply dont understand it. With anyone else, everything he has ever done, I would never forgive, or if he were anyone else I'd tell them the the harsh truth, and be blatent and rude. But for some reason I can't bring myself to do so. With him, I dont even think it's the damn truth... It's more, of, a hopeless hope I have.. maybe not hopeless..but... I don't know.. I don't understand why I let this go on, everyday, if this were any other person I would've told them to fuck off by now, but I physically can't do it, and I realize its taking a toll on myself. Helplessness, uselessness, it starts to wear you out after a while. -sigh- I gotta do something....