close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by.
The days get shorter, but it feels like everyday just drags on and on and on. Like there's no end. I must say, i'm really hating school. I hate having this continuous schedule of waking up, going to school, cursing myself for ever playing volleyball, then coming home and trying to turn my ADD off enough to get some work done, then I go to bed to start it ALL over again. It's getting very annoying and it's only the first month. Well whatever I'll get over it..
I've also noticed taht this whole decision that I made a while back about just not getting a boyfriend this year, probably won't work. I suppose it's because of my recent piling's of insane work and no actual relax time, makes me kinda really want just someone that'll be there when i get home to just, y'know, be there I guess. And as most of you know, I'm an extremely social person, I have to be with someone everyday or I die. I kinda just want someone i can call my own... That and since I think such imperfection in myself, that I'd love to just have someone that loves every part of me, so that in someone's eyes i could be perfect.. ohhh how i hate single-ism (:
I must say yesterday was quite lovely. I hung out with my favorite people ever. During the day I hung out with Mike, whom i haven't seen in FOREVER so it was fun (: and at night with my dearrrr sister Jordan Spiro (: and many others at the soccer game. It was a relief, for a stressful week, I love seeing my freinds, they're the most amazing people i know....
I cant think of anything else to write... Besides the fact that MATT'S TEAM SUCKS! <3 Cat
I've also noticed taht this whole decision that I made a while back about just not getting a boyfriend this year, probably won't work. I suppose it's because of my recent piling's of insane work and no actual relax time, makes me kinda really want just someone that'll be there when i get home to just, y'know, be there I guess. And as most of you know, I'm an extremely social person, I have to be with someone everyday or I die. I kinda just want someone i can call my own... That and since I think such imperfection in myself, that I'd love to just have someone that loves every part of me, so that in someone's eyes i could be perfect.. ohhh how i hate single-ism (:
I must say yesterday was quite lovely. I hung out with my favorite people ever. During the day I hung out with Mike, whom i haven't seen in FOREVER so it was fun (: and at night with my dearrrr sister Jordan Spiro (: and many others at the soccer game. It was a relief, for a stressful week, I love seeing my freinds, they're the most amazing people i know....
I cant think of anything else to write... Besides the fact that MATT'S TEAM SUCKS! <3 Cat