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I don't know how to cope with life.
I can't make the noise inside my head quiet. When my previous doc had me on medications that helped my anxiety, things got quiet. Not anymore. Not for a long time.
I am so upset and saddened by everyone. It terrifies me beyond functioning. I don't know how to live like a normal human being. I want to hide but if I did that I would lose my job and my boyfriend probably and my dog and my life and would just end up...yeah.
I don't know.
I wish I knew how to be happy like other people or how to quiet all the noise and just be able to live in peace for even a few minutes at a time.
I know there was a time when I wasn't constantly terrified but I don't remember what that feels like anymore.
I can't make the noise inside my head quiet. When my previous doc had me on medications that helped my anxiety, things got quiet. Not anymore. Not for a long time.
I am so upset and saddened by everyone. It terrifies me beyond functioning. I don't know how to live like a normal human being. I want to hide but if I did that I would lose my job and my boyfriend probably and my dog and my life and would just end up...yeah.
I don't know.
I wish I knew how to be happy like other people or how to quiet all the noise and just be able to live in peace for even a few minutes at a time.
I know there was a time when I wasn't constantly terrified but I don't remember what that feels like anymore.