my equivilence
My equivalence I learned today is as little as the smallest thing u can see cut in half. It is less then half of half of what u care nothing for. I am the ant at the parade that the marching band steps on constantly and then gets ran over by the cars and people that follow. I have learned that my equivalence is only good for a day and a half. And I
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alright right up ehre so everyone can know. im dyting
and ive been slowly dying for the past year and a half now. this shit in my head spreads mroe n more each day
first i go brian dead and then i bleed out of the ears and fuckin die/. si everybodyhappy now is everyone happy. terry gets only one thign he wnated in his life then he dies
everyone like teh results i hope so, i fuckin hope so
this is why i kept passing out in school shana, or i bleed so easily from the nose. i get them chronicly now
last night i bleedf from teh fuckin eyes
for the past week i got random blindness
i get random body achs or sometiem seven lose contorl of it, for example my leg goes dead and i fall face first so everyone cna turn and lauhg at terry
and all this from a little stress
or atleast to everyone else it is
im fuckined in the head alright peopel fuck yall im the one who is so fucked that hes dying from the fuckness in his head
and now ur all thinking what a fuckin patholiciglacla however the fuck it is spelt i cant god damn think anymore lyer he must be im nto fucking lying i am dying this shit will kill me unless im able to calm the fuck down and none of these god damn pills work
i got 7 mother fuckin bottles infront of me and noen of them work why the fuck am i so god damn curesed
been wanting to die for some logn and now that i am i dotn want to cuz i have a daughter who i want to b able to see become beter than anything i copuld of possibleimagined for myself and now i cant control that
do u actualy know how scary it is knowing everyitm ur alone that this is how it iwll b when i die
tha tmy mom will one day wake up walk into my room and find me dead coverd in blood do u knwo how horrible it that i can bring myself to say that to her that i cant let my mom know what is wrong with me all these years of haitng her so much and now im just to afraid to hurt her so abldy
so to everyone who waqnts to bash me for being upset that my life will b ending befor emy daughter is old enough to realise "oh shit its my dad" fuck off. cuz while u relax in ur happy little fuckin bubble, i sit here wasitng my life away trying to remember exactly when it was that i was a kid, free and open mminded outgoing and haivng fun wihtout an inch of responsibility, trying to remember somethign that i have to amke up in my head is hard when half the time i can feel myself getting mroe and more retarded head gets all cloged up and i cant even hear people everything gets warped and i begin to here my heart beat grow louder the godzilla dropin a duce so how abotu instead of everyone bashing terry for being upset like everyone has doen in his life, for example peopel yelling at me when i use to cry, that goes to multiple people, just remember, maybe if u actualy cared instead of yallling and saying sto, u would of said oh whats wrong, u knwo like a friend does, liek how i have done for each and everyone one of u, and u know its true, u all know that everyitime u have all been upset adn began talking to me that i listned and i did what i could to make u all feel better but back to what i was saying, im jsut not good enough cuz my equivilrence is nothing and soon it literlay will be.
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