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why does it feel like almost every guy i've talked to lately, has been complicating me in some way, shape, or form. Drew Gonzalves basically told me I was amazing. told me I was losing weight. told me I didn't need to lose any more weight. tried making me feel better about myself. Baka just keeps wanting to hang out with keeps saying i'm hot and he wants to have sex with me. Josh Phelps is telling me I'm a cutie, a sweatheart, adorable, etc. John Crawford also told me I did not need to lose any weight and said I was fine the way I am.
Look, guys. I know and appreciate what you're trying to do. but don't tell me to not lose weight when you guys are idolizing the real skinny girls. That's just ironic. I don't get it. How do some people find me so appealing. How does Robert chose me.
You know, I was thinking. I don't realize when people actually like me. For all I know, Robert could be absolutely head over heals with me. but I wouldn't believe him. I believe he likes me a lot. Love is a question. Does he think about me all the time? are the thoughts always good? it's different when I've been the one he's told how much every girl has meant to him. Now I'm not in the position so I don't actually know. He gets mad when I tell him I don't believe when he says I love him.
What's wrong with me. Why do I hate myself so much. Why can't I just be happy with who I am. Like, I am. maybe it's something different than what i've been thinking. Why do I think that no one could honestly care about me. I dunno.
Anyways. I'm real warm right now. I went tanning on sunday. went tanning today. Everyone noticed my tan today in school. dear god, I wonder what their gonna say tomorrow. does it really make that big of a difference after 6 minutes in a tanner?
Look, guys. I know and appreciate what you're trying to do. but don't tell me to not lose weight when you guys are idolizing the real skinny girls. That's just ironic. I don't get it. How do some people find me so appealing. How does Robert chose me.
You know, I was thinking. I don't realize when people actually like me. For all I know, Robert could be absolutely head over heals with me. but I wouldn't believe him. I believe he likes me a lot. Love is a question. Does he think about me all the time? are the thoughts always good? it's different when I've been the one he's told how much every girl has meant to him. Now I'm not in the position so I don't actually know. He gets mad when I tell him I don't believe when he says I love him.
What's wrong with me. Why do I hate myself so much. Why can't I just be happy with who I am. Like, I am. maybe it's something different than what i've been thinking. Why do I think that no one could honestly care about me. I dunno.
Anyways. I'm real warm right now. I went tanning on sunday. went tanning today. Everyone noticed my tan today in school. dear god, I wonder what their gonna say tomorrow. does it really make that big of a difference after 6 minutes in a tanner?