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I want to say so much but I can't. I honestly feel ridiculous.
I think I'm just going to put a part of an email that I sent to Myles earlier today to show how I'm fucking going out of my mind once again.
i have to tell someone. i wanted to die today. i didnt go to school and honestly i really don't care anymore. do u think thats stupid. i was so scared all i did was stay in bed because i thought i was goin to do something stupid. i want to talk to someone and tell someone but nobodys there. i hate everyone. no one gets it. but yeah i dont hate you. how do you put up with me? do u think anyone would care or notice if i wasnt here anymore?
It's weird to me because I can't even read that again to myself without thinking how the hell could I write that and be feeling that way. I dunno how I feel now but I just. I don't know.
I'll be fine. In a couple days i'll be ok...right?
I think I'm just going to put a part of an email that I sent to Myles earlier today to show how I'm fucking going out of my mind once again.
i have to tell someone. i wanted to die today. i didnt go to school and honestly i really don't care anymore. do u think thats stupid. i was so scared all i did was stay in bed because i thought i was goin to do something stupid. i want to talk to someone and tell someone but nobodys there. i hate everyone. no one gets it. but yeah i dont hate you. how do you put up with me? do u think anyone would care or notice if i wasnt here anymore?
It's weird to me because I can't even read that again to myself without thinking how the hell could I write that and be feeling that way. I dunno how I feel now but I just. I don't know.
I'll be fine. In a couple days i'll be ok...right?