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I'm ina really good mood and I don't know why. I should be sleeping, I work in the morning, but I took a two hour nap so I'm freakin wired. Ugh.
So... Life.. Yeah
I haven't gone out as much lately. We've gone to a few movies, but I haven't partied in like a week.. Go me. I'm just so blahhhh. I think it's because I'm PMSing. This weekend will be a completely different story though. My parents are going to Miami for my grandmothers 89th birthday party, and leaving me home alone. I looove itttt. Hopefully my brother goes with them. If he does, I'm having a party. If he doesn't, I'm just having a few ppl over to chill and play some beer pong.
Yep. What else.. oh. The boytoy. I dunno what's going on. Ok, yeah I do, but I duno. LOL I like him sooo freaking much, and it's there. He told Linsey that I'ma "crazygood kisser"..ahahaha. That made me laugh. But yeah. I dunno where things are going though. I seriously cannot get this kid out of my head. It's retardedddddd. We all went to see Superman the other night, and I kept catching him just looking at me. It gave me a warm fuzzy feeling. LOL. Goddd I'm gay.
I'm aiming to go back to Hawaii in November.. He's coming home in December, but I want to go out there again. I know once he comes home, we're not gonna spend all that much time together because he's got so many other people to see, which is perfectly understandable... so I wanna spend some time with him, just us. It's sick how much I miss him. He called me at 4:30 this morning to talk, and I didn't mind him waking me up. It was worth it, you know? Blah. He wants me to move out there with him, and the more I think about it, the more I want to.. But it's just not a good idea. He could be re-stationed at anytime, he could be sent overseas at anytime, when he gets leave to come home, whose to say i'll have the money to fly home too? i don't want to be stranded in hawaii by myself.. Ya know?? If he was stationed stateside, I would in a heartbeat. I wanna get the hell out of Deltona.
Speaking of getting out of Deltona... I think me, Linsey and Dajana are moving to Tampa next year.. We'll be going to USF. I hope it works out. I know the Hawaii thing is a very far-fetched idea, so this is the next best thing to get the fuck out of Deltona. Kelci is supposed to be moving to California in August, or she'd prolly go with us. I think it'll be fun. I wish I had gone away to school after graduation, but I was scared to go alone.. So having my best friends with me will make it fun. We'll prolly end up killing each other but oh well. LoL.
I can't think of anything else to write, yet my head is so full of random thoughts.
Russell and I have a "date" this weekend. He's been promising me that just me and him will go out, either to a movie or whatever, since we never hang out anymore. He promised me this a few months ago, and I told him that if it doesn't happen sunday, he's in deep shit.. so we made plans. I hope it works out, I miss him. I hung out with him and Billy the other night, we just sat at Russell's watching the college world series, but I had fun. They're the type of friends that I'm so comfortable with, I don't have to worry about anything other than just chillin. It was relaxing. It's amazing to me that after all these years, after everything we've been though, that we're still so close. Most people would just give up on friendships and not try, but not us.. And we've got our seperate lives, we go our own ways all the time, but always manage to find time for us again.
I do miss the four of us being together though. I was going through pictures last night, trying to decide which ones are gonna be hung up in my room... and I just bawled. I have a whole album to pictures of just me, Westley, Russell and Billy.... and looking at pictures of us from freshman year, all through high school, until now.. I just lost it. It made me miss westley even more, but I miss the four of us. I miss us being inseperable. I miss how close we all were.. but then.. I look at us now, and we still have it.. just not all together. Ya know?? I'm still close to all of them.. I think I just miss having all of us TOGETHER. We're all seperate now, we have our own lives... I guess that is just part of us growing up. I wouldn't change a damn thing right now, I love my life and my relationships with each of them... but it's not bad to miss the past, is it?
blah. ok. enough babbling. g'night.
I'm ina really good mood and I don't know why. I should be sleeping, I work in the morning, but I took a two hour nap so I'm freakin wired. Ugh.
So... Life.. Yeah
I haven't gone out as much lately. We've gone to a few movies, but I haven't partied in like a week.. Go me. I'm just so blahhhh. I think it's because I'm PMSing. This weekend will be a completely different story though. My parents are going to Miami for my grandmothers 89th birthday party, and leaving me home alone. I looove itttt. Hopefully my brother goes with them. If he does, I'm having a party. If he doesn't, I'm just having a few ppl over to chill and play some beer pong.
Yep. What else.. oh. The boytoy. I dunno what's going on. Ok, yeah I do, but I duno. LOL I like him sooo freaking much, and it's there. He told Linsey that I'ma "crazygood kisser"..ahahaha. That made me laugh. But yeah. I dunno where things are going though. I seriously cannot get this kid out of my head. It's retardedddddd. We all went to see Superman the other night, and I kept catching him just looking at me. It gave me a warm fuzzy feeling. LOL. Goddd I'm gay.
I'm aiming to go back to Hawaii in November.. He's coming home in December, but I want to go out there again. I know once he comes home, we're not gonna spend all that much time together because he's got so many other people to see, which is perfectly understandable... so I wanna spend some time with him, just us. It's sick how much I miss him. He called me at 4:30 this morning to talk, and I didn't mind him waking me up. It was worth it, you know? Blah. He wants me to move out there with him, and the more I think about it, the more I want to.. But it's just not a good idea. He could be re-stationed at anytime, he could be sent overseas at anytime, when he gets leave to come home, whose to say i'll have the money to fly home too? i don't want to be stranded in hawaii by myself.. Ya know?? If he was stationed stateside, I would in a heartbeat. I wanna get the hell out of Deltona.
Speaking of getting out of Deltona... I think me, Linsey and Dajana are moving to Tampa next year.. We'll be going to USF. I hope it works out. I know the Hawaii thing is a very far-fetched idea, so this is the next best thing to get the fuck out of Deltona. Kelci is supposed to be moving to California in August, or she'd prolly go with us. I think it'll be fun. I wish I had gone away to school after graduation, but I was scared to go alone.. So having my best friends with me will make it fun. We'll prolly end up killing each other but oh well. LoL.
I can't think of anything else to write, yet my head is so full of random thoughts.
Russell and I have a "date" this weekend. He's been promising me that just me and him will go out, either to a movie or whatever, since we never hang out anymore. He promised me this a few months ago, and I told him that if it doesn't happen sunday, he's in deep shit.. so we made plans. I hope it works out, I miss him. I hung out with him and Billy the other night, we just sat at Russell's watching the college world series, but I had fun. They're the type of friends that I'm so comfortable with, I don't have to worry about anything other than just chillin. It was relaxing. It's amazing to me that after all these years, after everything we've been though, that we're still so close. Most people would just give up on friendships and not try, but not us.. And we've got our seperate lives, we go our own ways all the time, but always manage to find time for us again.
I do miss the four of us being together though. I was going through pictures last night, trying to decide which ones are gonna be hung up in my room... and I just bawled. I have a whole album to pictures of just me, Westley, Russell and Billy.... and looking at pictures of us from freshman year, all through high school, until now.. I just lost it. It made me miss westley even more, but I miss the four of us. I miss us being inseperable. I miss how close we all were.. but then.. I look at us now, and we still have it.. just not all together. Ya know?? I'm still close to all of them.. I think I just miss having all of us TOGETHER. We're all seperate now, we have our own lives... I guess that is just part of us growing up. I wouldn't change a damn thing right now, I love my life and my relationships with each of them... but it's not bad to miss the past, is it?
blah. ok. enough babbling. g'night.