Summer has come and passed again
I start my sophomore year of high school tomorrow and I am so anxious, scared sometimes and then really excited at others. I really just hope everything turns out ok. It's so weird that today is my last day of ''freedom'' until next summer really, where does the time go? It feels so wasted even if it seemed perfect at the start. I haven't done much this summer and to everyone else it probably seems like nothing but to me it's been golden.I'm pretty sure I've fallen in love with someone and that really scares me,the question constantly crossing my mind is whether or not it's really love love or am I fooling myself with all my pathetic notions of romance? Only time will tell I suppose.
School hasn't been my favorite thing in the past but I really think this year will be better than the last, I feel less alone now and I like to think that inside this summer alone with my thoughts I've gotten to know myself better and maybe even come to terms with the fact that I am who I am and that's who I always will be. Just because I've come to terms with it doesn't mean I like myself any better sadly...
Self esteems low and my temperatures high, somebody cool me down, I wonder if she's meant to be my breath of fresh air in the long run?
I should be saved from myself and maybe school and some sembelence of a social life could do that.
Or not, I'm often overwhelmed by my own ideas and dreams but that doesn't stop me much.
I need to focus on the good just this once and hope that it's enough to get me by.
School hasn't been my favorite thing in the past but I really think this year will be better than the last, I feel less alone now and I like to think that inside this summer alone with my thoughts I've gotten to know myself better and maybe even come to terms with the fact that I am who I am and that's who I always will be. Just because I've come to terms with it doesn't mean I like myself any better sadly...
Self esteems low and my temperatures high, somebody cool me down, I wonder if she's meant to be my breath of fresh air in the long run?
I should be saved from myself and maybe school and some sembelence of a social life could do that.
Or not, I'm often overwhelmed by my own ideas and dreams but that doesn't stop me much.
I need to focus on the good just this once and hope that it's enough to get me by.