Dec 20, 2004 18:28
so I am trying to figure this out ...do you remember we were going to be together forever? I dont know if i believe In Love anymore I dont know that any of it was true but you know what its okay though... to grow and learn to become stronger from everything we do,nothing i did was a mistake only an experience so now with everyday that goes by i heal and make the best of it all and i wish i could understand what happened...i dont know if maybe all that didnt happen how differnt my life would be ..i used to have this theory about your heart and how you can only love so many people before you have nothing left to give liek everytime you give those 3 words away your breaking of a piece of your heart and handing it to them on a silver platter your soon left with nothing just numb to this feeling of love it can not heal never to be fixed but then also i think love is not a feeling but just a state of mind we are taught out entire lifes this is how love feels so we try to connect the person we are with to this "feeling" so you make yourself love them and it can all be changed ..nothing i say seems to add up i guess im confusing im trying to not think into thingsanymore to just see everything from the surface up..well its hard to think about all this stuff and not get sad....im dumb this a pointless entry