something really fucky about it...
ok this weekend was pretty good i've been studying for exams
um friday i saw tj he was over pretty much all nite till bout 3ish i guess and that was cool um saturday i slept pretty late which i love and then I did a bit of studying then i went to epcot with tjjj which was cool we got dinner and rode the mexican boat ride which is funny with the puppets and all then we watched the christmas concert and the fireworks and it was cold and he had his arms around me and we drank hot chocolate which is so gross but it made it perfect...then we watched Elf at his house thats a good movie...um today i went christmas shopping and it was kinda pointless because so many ppl are there and I did not really have much time so yeah i did not get everything i needed so i am bummed about it...
steven is coming on the 27 and i can not even wait it will be ever so fun i hope cord will come soon cause i miss him
i dont talk to anyone that much anymore ..i feel like everything i do is cliche and so routine i want things to change i want life to be more meaningful then what it is...so i battle everything out in my head and try to justify it all maybe everything doesnt happen for a reason who the fuck came up with that anyways and if it does then we really have absolutly no control over our own lifes and god, the higher power who knows everything, we are just his puppets on strings just actors on stage so we dont know whats goin to happen the next day in the next scene of this play but maybe life is not as meaningful as i want it to be maybe its actually us just worrying about what to wear what i will do this weekend that significant other every little thing we worry about thats the extent of it all ...and im not trying to be deep or act insightful because im not im just trying to understand everything...