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I hate my life...and I would like for it to end...like NOW... Im like so sic of evrything now its just to much for me to handle...I dont want to have to deal with it anymore...I would like to be able to wake up for just one morning without sitting in my bed and crying because I dont wanna go to skool and be harrassed anymore...im sic of faking sic.... Im sic of wakeing up and wondering wat would happen if I had done something differently...I would like to be able to eat in the morning without getting sic to my stomach cuz im so scared and nervous to see what will happen to me today like whose going to harass me today? .... I would like to be able to look in the mirror without crying because I hate wat I see...I would like to go a day or maybe even an hour without thinking that im fat or ugly...I would like to have self confidence I would like to be able to walk thru my skool with my head up for once of be able to look people in the eye even...I would also like to go fot atleast an hour without thinking of John and how much he hates me or wats going to happen if or wen he comes up... I would like to stop thinking that everyone is thinking badly of me... I would like to be able to look at someone if there looking at me and not rite away assume that they are putting me down inside there head... basically wat im saying here people is that I would like to for once be happy like actually HAPPY happy...but that will never happen...so this was pointless now u just kno how I fell all of the time...one last thing that I would like to do is be able to go thru a day without contemplating suicide...that would be great but thats just wat certain people lead me to....not just Suds but hes a big part of it....him and his dumbass friends ((SOME of his dumbass friends))...blaa life sux... : /