that short story from last year, its title was spot on.
I'll tell you the truth- I want someone to believe in.
Because Senator Aquino lacks the experience and Senator Villar lacks the credibility and when Mister Teodoro showed to at UPM to talk he spewed nothing but meaningless platitudes anyone can say any day (and everyone liked him so much I thought I was either being too critical or everyone else was just walking around with their eyes closed- but that's another story). Senator Gordon I wish I could trust but when someone's been that long in politics you start looking askance at them whether it's something they did or no, and maybe this entire mess is the fault of a system where you don't vote for the someone you like but for the someone you hate the least.
And it's not just politics and sides and stupid things like that, the stupid things that run this place. They're just the obvious places. They're only incidental. If they weren't there or if they were perfect all our problems would be coming from someplace else. I know, I know- it's a good thing that I'm still getting disgusted at the world, because as long as people are still being disgusted when disgusting things are happening there will still be hope. And I know- if you don't believe in anyone then that means that they can never hurt you.
But. But. I want to be able to say that it's crazy and it's flawed and it's occasionally completely outrageous but this is how we run the world, we can make it work, deal with it. I want to be able to give an opinion and not have to clarify that there are idiots on my side but that doesn't make my point any less valid. I want there to be things worth fighting for and dying for and a way to actually work for these things, and when I turn a page of an old journal and see the words "Dear God, life is hell" I want to be able to yell that NO IT ISN'T.
There will always be idiots, and the fact that people are people means that this crazy vortex pit that is the world will go on being what it is, capable of more hell than any hell can ever come up with, and occasionally of more grace than heaven can ever dream of. All I want is for maybe that occasionally to show up more often.
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I want? A Sam Vimes to my Lord Vetinari. I need to know that there is one good person, out there, somewhere. Preferably working for me as I rule the most powerful city in the world and let him do what he needs to get done. But you're getting ahead of yourself there, Jillian Lee. The point still stands, though.
Because Senator Aquino lacks the experience and Senator Villar lacks the credibility and when Mister Teodoro showed to at UPM to talk he spewed nothing but meaningless platitudes anyone can say any day (and everyone liked him so much I thought I was either being too critical or everyone else was just walking around with their eyes closed- but that's another story). Senator Gordon I wish I could trust but when someone's been that long in politics you start looking askance at them whether it's something they did or no, and maybe this entire mess is the fault of a system where you don't vote for the someone you like but for the someone you hate the least.
And it's not just politics and sides and stupid things like that, the stupid things that run this place. They're just the obvious places. They're only incidental. If they weren't there or if they were perfect all our problems would be coming from someplace else. I know, I know- it's a good thing that I'm still getting disgusted at the world, because as long as people are still being disgusted when disgusting things are happening there will still be hope. And I know- if you don't believe in anyone then that means that they can never hurt you.
But. But. I want to be able to say that it's crazy and it's flawed and it's occasionally completely outrageous but this is how we run the world, we can make it work, deal with it. I want to be able to give an opinion and not have to clarify that there are idiots on my side but that doesn't make my point any less valid. I want there to be things worth fighting for and dying for and a way to actually work for these things, and when I turn a page of an old journal and see the words "Dear God, life is hell" I want to be able to yell that NO IT ISN'T.
There will always be idiots, and the fact that people are people means that this crazy vortex pit that is the world will go on being what it is, capable of more hell than any hell can ever come up with, and occasionally of more grace than heaven can ever dream of. All I want is for maybe that occasionally to show up more often.
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I want? A Sam Vimes to my Lord Vetinari. I need to know that there is one good person, out there, somewhere. Preferably working for me as I rule the most powerful city in the world and let him do what he needs to get done. But you're getting ahead of yourself there, Jillian Lee. The point still stands, though.