It's NOT Unexpected, But That Doesn't Make It SUCK Any Less...

[wyrdwriter]

 Shelby was at least 8-years old when we adopted her.  She had spent her former life as a "breeder" in a puppy mill.  EVERY time a dog/cat goes into "heat" it increases their risk of future breast cancer.  EIGHT (or more) years...
We've had her 5.5 years...
Today the vet found a lump on Shelby's breast.  It has uneven edges and is about the size of a grape.  
They offered to cut it out and biopsy
but,
given that she is at least 13 years old
given that she is a RESCUE that is frightened of strangers
given what I know about animal cancer
we aren't going to put her through that...
Cancer would not mean chemo for her.
Cancer would not change anything other than that we spoil her MORE 
and watch for signs of discomfort or "the end".
It has been only a month since Aradia's Hospice/Death Watch and yet
here we are again.
It's been less than a month since my miscarriage.
I haven't talked to Charlie enough today to know what he is feeling, but I imagine it is pretty close to how I feel...
Wrung Out.
"God doesn't give us anything we can't handle.  I just wish He didn't trust me so much!"  ~~ Mother Theresa

Yep.