Sour Somethings
+ Lost my house keys. Looked everywhere. CLEANED. Finally realized that they could be in the inside front door..but was so loopy last night that it didn't occur to me to, you know, open the damn door and CHECK. So I found the keys this morning, but did not go to church as planned. Yes, that's right, I said church. A UU church, but still, church.
+ Happily, finding my keys means I'm still on for the New Directions deal tomorrow, though I'm fretting about my tummy. I've had wicked bad IBS-ish symptoms for a week now. Seriously, I've been eating small bland low-fat meals all day and I'm still nauseated and headachey. Feh. I made some millet...if nothing else, I can bring some plain ol'millet for lunch tomorrow...exciting!
+ I don't care about turning 34, in the sense that I have no particular agony over being a specific age. Okay, I'm not happy that I owe massive amounts of money to people with no end in sight, I desperately need a source of regular income, I'm in pain, I don't have a lot of love for my locale, and I feel like a general failure surrounded by geniuses making huge successes of their lives...I mean, other than that, whatever, I'd still rather be 34 than 14. I am kind of cranky that my birthday is going to consist of waking up early and being around people I don't know and an early night. And my dad's "whatever, it's just a day" attitude is making more and more sense - also cranky making. I think birthdays should involve cake and booze and possibly sparklers. Well, I might go buy myself ice cream. Or a beer at my favorite happy hour place. Depends on how I feel. I sold a necklace, so I think I deserve a beer. Or ice cream.
+ I've been watching Buffy and remaking a necklace I made for myself around x-mas. It has these gorgeous black sardonyx stones (one of my birthstones) and purple glass beads. I'll take pics when I've finished. Over the last few years, a certain Buffy quote has popped into my head a lot... my life happens, on occasion, to suck beyond the telling of it...one of my favorite Buffy quotes. And rather appropriate for me right now.
+ Happily, finding my keys means I'm still on for the New Directions deal tomorrow, though I'm fretting about my tummy. I've had wicked bad IBS-ish symptoms for a week now. Seriously, I've been eating small bland low-fat meals all day and I'm still nauseated and headachey. Feh. I made some millet...if nothing else, I can bring some plain ol'millet for lunch tomorrow...exciting!
+ I don't care about turning 34, in the sense that I have no particular agony over being a specific age. Okay, I'm not happy that I owe massive amounts of money to people with no end in sight, I desperately need a source of regular income, I'm in pain, I don't have a lot of love for my locale, and I feel like a general failure surrounded by geniuses making huge successes of their lives...I mean, other than that, whatever, I'd still rather be 34 than 14. I am kind of cranky that my birthday is going to consist of waking up early and being around people I don't know and an early night. And my dad's "whatever, it's just a day" attitude is making more and more sense - also cranky making. I think birthdays should involve cake and booze and possibly sparklers. Well, I might go buy myself ice cream. Or a beer at my favorite happy hour place. Depends on how I feel. I sold a necklace, so I think I deserve a beer. Or ice cream.
+ I've been watching Buffy and remaking a necklace I made for myself around x-mas. It has these gorgeous black sardonyx stones (one of my birthstones) and purple glass beads. I'll take pics when I've finished. Over the last few years, a certain Buffy quote has popped into my head a lot... my life happens, on occasion, to suck beyond the telling of it...one of my favorite Buffy quotes. And rather appropriate for me right now.