Job update
I still don't think my current job is "my job". This week went better in some respects - I actually talked with my boss, I figured out a couple of things that probably matter a lot, and I spent some time working out intro speeches and emails. What I DIDN'T manage was speaking to real live people. So, lots of answering machines and voice mails are very impressed with my beautiful informative delivery. And there are several computers out there who think I write a kick ass sales email. BFD.
The things I figured out that probably matter are this: I don't really feel good about this - we prey on people who have gotten themselves into bad financial situations. I really believe that I'm better in person than I am on the phone. And, lastly, I don't quite believe that I can be successful at this, probably a lot related to the two previous observations.
I feel guilty, and uncomfortable. Our best potential customer is in trouble, and the truth is, a refi isn't a bad way out. BUT, if they don't really commit to changing the behavior that got them in trouble in the first place, they can actually end up in WORSE shape than before. Granted, we are in a unique position to provide them with cash to get out of a bad place, but since they're scared and vulnerable in the first place, they'll grasp at any straw to get out. Oooh! Insight just struck! This is pretty funny - I think a lot of my personal problem with this is that I think it's really unfair to go after people when they are vulnerable, because I HATE it when people do it to me! Look at that - self appointed world protector strikes again! I'm screwed.
Second, I'm stuck in a self-defeating belief (actually, several, but this one is apt here) that I come across better in person than on the phone. I think I'm more approachable, and more trustworthy in person. Okay, that came out wrong - I'm trustworthy regardless, but I think it's much more obvious in person. This again taps into my perceptions - I would never give out the information I ask for over the phone, so I can't wrap my head around people giving it to me that way. Over-identifying with my potential customers again, to their detriment and my own.
Third, on some level, I can't believe that I can every really be financially at ease. Again, a stupid self-defeating mindset, but one I can't figure out how to get past. I'm sure on some level I think I don't deserve it. Still screwed.
Good stuff: I had an interview on Wednesday that went really well at Great Expectations dating service call center. All warm leads, people go online and input their information and we call to get them into one of the dating centers. Base pay plus commission, WAY less guilt inducing (if I make sure to not know certain things), and the top producer in Champlin averages $35 an hour. I think I could do that and feel better about it - helping someone with their love life sounds more my style - but it's still sales, and the hours are lousy. There's some flexibility, but not enough to make it a good long term fit. Through the summer at the most, until school starts again.
I have an interview on Monday afternoon at a concrete construction company in Blaine for an office manager position. Interested, but waiting till after I know more to get anything more than interested.
T- has a lead on a part-time office manager job as well. I need to call her and find out more. In fact, I'm going to do that now, while I'm thinking about it.
The things I figured out that probably matter are this: I don't really feel good about this - we prey on people who have gotten themselves into bad financial situations. I really believe that I'm better in person than I am on the phone. And, lastly, I don't quite believe that I can be successful at this, probably a lot related to the two previous observations.
I feel guilty, and uncomfortable. Our best potential customer is in trouble, and the truth is, a refi isn't a bad way out. BUT, if they don't really commit to changing the behavior that got them in trouble in the first place, they can actually end up in WORSE shape than before. Granted, we are in a unique position to provide them with cash to get out of a bad place, but since they're scared and vulnerable in the first place, they'll grasp at any straw to get out. Oooh! Insight just struck! This is pretty funny - I think a lot of my personal problem with this is that I think it's really unfair to go after people when they are vulnerable, because I HATE it when people do it to me! Look at that - self appointed world protector strikes again! I'm screwed.
Second, I'm stuck in a self-defeating belief (actually, several, but this one is apt here) that I come across better in person than on the phone. I think I'm more approachable, and more trustworthy in person. Okay, that came out wrong - I'm trustworthy regardless, but I think it's much more obvious in person. This again taps into my perceptions - I would never give out the information I ask for over the phone, so I can't wrap my head around people giving it to me that way. Over-identifying with my potential customers again, to their detriment and my own.
Third, on some level, I can't believe that I can every really be financially at ease. Again, a stupid self-defeating mindset, but one I can't figure out how to get past. I'm sure on some level I think I don't deserve it. Still screwed.
Good stuff: I had an interview on Wednesday that went really well at Great Expectations dating service call center. All warm leads, people go online and input their information and we call to get them into one of the dating centers. Base pay plus commission, WAY less guilt inducing (if I make sure to not know certain things), and the top producer in Champlin averages $35 an hour. I think I could do that and feel better about it - helping someone with their love life sounds more my style - but it's still sales, and the hours are lousy. There's some flexibility, but not enough to make it a good long term fit. Through the summer at the most, until school starts again.
I have an interview on Monday afternoon at a concrete construction company in Blaine for an office manager position. Interested, but waiting till after I know more to get anything more than interested.
T- has a lead on a part-time office manager job as well. I need to call her and find out more. In fact, I'm going to do that now, while I'm thinking about it.