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holy baloney, its 32 degrees! yesterday we had a *high* of 43. not that cold really but when you consider its a 50 degree drop in temp it felt like ice station zebra.
sun is out today, so it will warm to a perfect 70. yessss. this is why we live here =)
i have been on mental overload since returning from the gov's council last week. wow did they toss a bunch of info to us. good council though, there are some movers and shakers, definitely not a token board. i meet some good folks - the council is composed of 60% people with disabilities and family members and 40% state people. i visited with one guy who began having seizures in 1991 - out of the blue. now he doesnt work or dirve and his life is dedicated to his family and to advancing the causes of his organization the Wy Epilepsy Association. quite a phenom he is.
even some of the state office reps had children with developmental disabilities. i really enjoyed the fellow from the SS benefit determination office. not only does he have a very unpopular job, but a child with fragile x. the chairman has a grown daughter that is non-verbal and completely dependent on his wife for care - they elected not to place her outside the home. these are the people that are the unsung heroes in my book. i think how easy we have it with tess. funny, too, almost everyone there knows her. my little social butterfly =)
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i have had a lot of general anxiety lately. not sleeping well, tired and feeling overwhelmed. this morning in the wee hours when i wasnt sleeping i became acutely aware of the crap that was spinning through my head. i need to spend some time today breathing in and out and purging the garbage. its amazing how cluttered my mind can become if i dont keep it in check. i hate it when the feelings of uncertainty start taking over. i can get overwhelmed, then paralyzed. i am usually a live-for-the-day kind of a person, so i clearly have some work to do.
i'm writing a few things down to help me let go of futile worry:
i have a sickness in my stomach about tomorrow being 9/11. tom's office is getting a lot of information that suggests there will be some terrorist activity. there continues to be the ongoing hatred of the US and President Bush of course, but one release suggests a 'special surprise' for the US tomorrow. i don't understand the mentality that takes pleasure from having people live in fear.
it makes me want to cry. all i can do is pray.
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retirement. five years out and scary. enough said.
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blood work and tumor marker recheck tomorrow.
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tom and dave are going elk hunting in grizzly country. they leave saturday morning. i *know* they are cautious, i *know* they carry pistols while they bow hunt. but it's fall, bears are hungry and aggressive.
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no interest in Fi as of yet. need to find her a good home.
sun is out today, so it will warm to a perfect 70. yessss. this is why we live here =)
i have been on mental overload since returning from the gov's council last week. wow did they toss a bunch of info to us. good council though, there are some movers and shakers, definitely not a token board. i meet some good folks - the council is composed of 60% people with disabilities and family members and 40% state people. i visited with one guy who began having seizures in 1991 - out of the blue. now he doesnt work or dirve and his life is dedicated to his family and to advancing the causes of his organization the Wy Epilepsy Association. quite a phenom he is.
even some of the state office reps had children with developmental disabilities. i really enjoyed the fellow from the SS benefit determination office. not only does he have a very unpopular job, but a child with fragile x. the chairman has a grown daughter that is non-verbal and completely dependent on his wife for care - they elected not to place her outside the home. these are the people that are the unsung heroes in my book. i think how easy we have it with tess. funny, too, almost everyone there knows her. my little social butterfly =)
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i have had a lot of general anxiety lately. not sleeping well, tired and feeling overwhelmed. this morning in the wee hours when i wasnt sleeping i became acutely aware of the crap that was spinning through my head. i need to spend some time today breathing in and out and purging the garbage. its amazing how cluttered my mind can become if i dont keep it in check. i hate it when the feelings of uncertainty start taking over. i can get overwhelmed, then paralyzed. i am usually a live-for-the-day kind of a person, so i clearly have some work to do.
i'm writing a few things down to help me let go of futile worry:
i have a sickness in my stomach about tomorrow being 9/11. tom's office is getting a lot of information that suggests there will be some terrorist activity. there continues to be the ongoing hatred of the US and President Bush of course, but one release suggests a 'special surprise' for the US tomorrow. i don't understand the mentality that takes pleasure from having people live in fear.
it makes me want to cry. all i can do is pray.
* * *
retirement. five years out and scary. enough said.
* * *
blood work and tumor marker recheck tomorrow.
* * *
tom and dave are going elk hunting in grizzly country. they leave saturday morning. i *know* they are cautious, i *know* they carry pistols while they bow hunt. but it's fall, bears are hungry and aggressive.
* * *
no interest in Fi as of yet. need to find her a good home.