Tired of Bullshit, disgusted with father

[wyndeewalker]

Hi everyone! My name is Wyndee Rebecca Walker and I live in Alexander City, Alabama with my mother and daughter. I am originally from New Orleans--ah just typing the name of the city that care forgot brings back the sweet memories of days gone by--but I was transported to this small town between Birmingham and Montgomery 3 years ago after

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[whollydevoted]

Last time I was hospitalized a staff member asked me "How are you feeling today?" I replied, "I am pissed off to be stuck in this hell hole." She then asked, "Are you having any thoughts of hurting yourself?" I laughed at her and said, "Well, if I was I wouldn't be stupid enough to tell you."

That reply earned me a day sitting by myself at a table and not being allowed to interact with the other patients.

[wyndeewalker]

Well in a way you earned the right to be left the F alone. The woman probably felt a measure of sympathy as well as community with you, as from what I can tell the mental health workers are just as miserable oftentimes as the "consumers" they just have the keys. What you could have said to the last comment was: "Just because I'm pissed off doesn't mean I want to hurt myself. My mind doesn't automatically jump to that conclusion" or you could've said "I might hurt on the inside and as a result want to hurt myself on the outside to show others just how much I hate being here, but I won't give you that kind of power over me. Thank you for asking." But of course we never think of the most intelligent responses when we are all mixed up and angry inside. But if you can think of things like that to say you will empower both yourself and the person who expresses a sincere interest in you. Unfortanately they all mean well don't they? LOL--There's an expression: "Sometimes the most tragic results start out with the best laid of

[whollydevoted]

I have no regrets about my response to that worker. It was one of the wittier moments in my life. I still chuckle about it. It was just their protocol to ask everyday about having thoughts about suicide. Just one more part of the daily drill

[wyndeewalker]

Well you could be right! You could be absolutely right!