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so, upon further consideration, i'm thinking about possibly re-applying to crutchfield, this time simply as a sales associate type person. This would give me, among other things, a proper 9-5 job, which would get me up early, and leave my evenings free to do stuff that's fun, rather than stuff that isn't (like unloading two 53' semis) To do this, however, I will have to get up at 9 to begin with.
second, I'm thinking again about the possibility of transferring. I've usually thrown this out for one very good reason. I would probably have to take at least 3 full years wherever i end up. Add this to the fact that I wouldn't start until the fall of 07, and i would be getting my undergrad degree just a year before my sister. However, the reason I'm thinking very strongly about a transfer is that last night (as i may have said) i realized that as unhappy as I am at Lowe's right now, I was almost equally unhappy at points during my time at UVa. I think I may have made a big mistake when I went to UVa, and at the moment, I need to think about whether I want to try and live with that mistake, or try and back up and fix it.
Of course, the issue of the transfer does have some issues, namely, where do I transfer to. Now, I haven't actually done any research into this, but I do still have a frontrunner. is the right school, but I think RPI might be a better match. Among other things, their motto is "why not change the world?" which is precisely what I want to do. Additionally, I had to make another similar decision a few years before my college decision. That was whether to go to Loudoun Valley High School, where I had friends and knew people, and was actually a really good school by most standards, or go to TJ, which is a great school, is far away, and where I knew no one. Now, I know TJ wasn't exactly the happiest time in the world, freshman year was tough, sophomore year I felt like a bit of an outcast, but by the time junior year rolled around, i was pretty happy. I can certainly say that the friendships I made during that four years are far stronger than almost all of the friendships I made previously. I had almost completely lost touch with most of my friends from before TJ by the time I was midway through my sophmore year, but now, with a few notable exceptions, almost all of my current friends i have been friends with since TJ. Now, I'm not saying I want to go to RPI so I can lose touch with all of you, I'm merely pointing out that going to TJ was a very tough decision that ended up being one of the best I ever made.
Now, part of me really wants to transfer, so I'm really coming up with lots of reasons in favor of the transfer, but i'm kind of mentally surpressing the reasons against the transfer, such as the aforementioned issues with RPI, the fact that it's located in Troy, NY, and worst of all, the fact that even beyond just taking 3 more years of college, I'd have to scrape together 3 years of out of state tution while my parents are busy putting my sister through college. Finally, is, what I think may be the nail in the coffin for this one, RPI wants all transfer students to have a 3.0 cumulative GPA. Something I certainly do not have, nor could have even if I pulled off all 4.0s next semester. (And, besides, if I were to transfer, I wouldn't want to go back to school at UVa for a semester anyway).
I really, strongly wish that I could rewind back about four and a half years, and accept the offer from RPI instead of UVa. Alternatively, I wish I'd had the foresight to apply for a transfer after my first semester, when my grades were still good. In retrospect... well, in retrospect I've completely fucked up the last four years of my life and I have no idea how to fix it. And on that note, I'm really tired, and when I get tired, I tend to get depressed, so if I keep writing this post is just going to keep getting worse.
gnight.
second, I'm thinking again about the possibility of transferring. I've usually thrown this out for one very good reason. I would probably have to take at least 3 full years wherever i end up. Add this to the fact that I wouldn't start until the fall of 07, and i would be getting my undergrad degree just a year before my sister. However, the reason I'm thinking very strongly about a transfer is that last night (as i may have said) i realized that as unhappy as I am at Lowe's right now, I was almost equally unhappy at points during my time at UVa. I think I may have made a big mistake when I went to UVa, and at the moment, I need to think about whether I want to try and live with that mistake, or try and back up and fix it.
Of course, the issue of the transfer does have some issues, namely, where do I transfer to. Now, I haven't actually done any research into this, but I do still have a frontrunner. is the right school, but I think RPI might be a better match. Among other things, their motto is "why not change the world?" which is precisely what I want to do. Additionally, I had to make another similar decision a few years before my college decision. That was whether to go to Loudoun Valley High School, where I had friends and knew people, and was actually a really good school by most standards, or go to TJ, which is a great school, is far away, and where I knew no one. Now, I know TJ wasn't exactly the happiest time in the world, freshman year was tough, sophomore year I felt like a bit of an outcast, but by the time junior year rolled around, i was pretty happy. I can certainly say that the friendships I made during that four years are far stronger than almost all of the friendships I made previously. I had almost completely lost touch with most of my friends from before TJ by the time I was midway through my sophmore year, but now, with a few notable exceptions, almost all of my current friends i have been friends with since TJ. Now, I'm not saying I want to go to RPI so I can lose touch with all of you, I'm merely pointing out that going to TJ was a very tough decision that ended up being one of the best I ever made.
Now, part of me really wants to transfer, so I'm really coming up with lots of reasons in favor of the transfer, but i'm kind of mentally surpressing the reasons against the transfer, such as the aforementioned issues with RPI, the fact that it's located in Troy, NY, and worst of all, the fact that even beyond just taking 3 more years of college, I'd have to scrape together 3 years of out of state tution while my parents are busy putting my sister through college. Finally, is, what I think may be the nail in the coffin for this one, RPI wants all transfer students to have a 3.0 cumulative GPA. Something I certainly do not have, nor could have even if I pulled off all 4.0s next semester. (And, besides, if I were to transfer, I wouldn't want to go back to school at UVa for a semester anyway).
I really, strongly wish that I could rewind back about four and a half years, and accept the offer from RPI instead of UVa. Alternatively, I wish I'd had the foresight to apply for a transfer after my first semester, when my grades were still good. In retrospect... well, in retrospect I've completely fucked up the last four years of my life and I have no idea how to fix it. And on that note, I'm really tired, and when I get tired, I tend to get depressed, so if I keep writing this post is just going to keep getting worse.
gnight.