hello i must be going
people tell me that the the last thing i worked on is actually pretty funny.
i do not believe them. they must be lemmings.
i got invited to a preview via someone who works at my new place. i declined. i'm not sure if it's because i don't like watching previews of stuff i worked on or if it's b/c i haven't yet gotten the preview ticket from the show itself, which is planned for just a few nights before the opening. either way, i prefer to see these things without the clamor and clutter of the hs-reunion-like atmosphere (which is what it's like if you're with anyone from a gig - past, present or future. i like the ones i have nothing to do with at all...). anyway, it's being so heavily marketed; i also loathe the questions i get from people who want gossip. none yo' business! (which is actually me fibbing, b/c i generally love to gossip, but with outsiders or insiders only, not with the in-betweeners, and not with competing companies).
it all comes back to the fact that i'm a nasty girl.
where people laugh i might snort. where people snort i might cough. where people cough i might laugh. vicious cycle. i wonder if i'll always carry the weight of hyper-cyniciscm or if one day i'll be proud enough not to.
anyway, i did NOTHING today and only a little bit yesterday.
i still can't figure out why every time i get rid of stuff i seem to come up with more stuff. i feel like the sisyphus of stuff.
i discovered kabir and will buy the new cd.
now there's a proper cynic. (check out 'the liar').
oooh - cake...!