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[wunderkin72]

I'm having "a day." I feel crabby, bored and unusually anxious. I cried about not going out. I cried about crying about not going out. I sat in my parents room and watched tv with them while my husband went out. And my mother lectured me on how it was actually MY fault, because I could have gone out if I just changed my attitude and said I could

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[anxiousjenn]

I had to sign in and comment because your letter to your friend made me chuckle. I've done that too. Where you mean it come out way better than you think that it did. Anyway, I wanted to reassure you that it probably did NOT come out creepy. People get busy and mean to respond and then don't...until much later. So don't be surprised if he sends you something back weeks from now. That's usually how it works for me. Of course, in the meantime, I work myself into a frenzy.

It's hard when you get stuck. I completely understand your not wanting to go out. I hate when I can't get myself to go out with my husband -- and then I sit around second guessing myself, wishing that I had gone because I probably would have been okay. Sometimes it helps if he can agree to coming home the second I don't feel okay. For some reason, that reassures me enough to feel "safe" to go out. Of course, I don't have CF, just major anxiety and bad panic attacks so this is a completely different scenario from yours.

[wunderkin72]

He actually DID email me after I sent him ANOTHER note apologizing. It made me feel better. I've been having a hard time socializing because of the restraints of being on o2 all the time. I have time limits. Otherwise I run out, unless I'm at home.
My fear is more that I'll ruin everyone elses good time because now they have to cut their night short, or have to worry if I'm having fun. I can go out and suck it up if it's not exactly what I want to do.