oh no
I had an interview for Chums today. It was pretty much about how much they liked you. The entire staff there sat in the coffeehouse and asked me questions (not a single of which was about the job). I was not expecting that when they said, "Sign up for an interview." So of course I was a little surprised and intimidated. I got an email after I got back from one of my many review sessions tonight saying that I didn't get the job. They said I should try again because it was close and I was too timid (yeah, because there were a ton of you!), but they only hire freshmen and sophomores and so I don't really have another opportunity.
This pretty much sent me into a little depression. I guess the stress of finals (3 of which I have no idea how well I'm going to do on) along with this kind of... rejection of personality made me really upset. I just have a hard time dealing with rejection and I guess I'm just feeling like a lot of my friendships are kind of in a sinkhole right now and a lot of my friends are still, as far as I know, not sure if they're even going to be in Seattle this summer. I'm still waiting to find out about my summer internship, too, so I guess I'm just feeling more of the pressure about that, too, now that I've been rejected for one thing.
I just feel like everything is kind of slipping apart into an unsalvageable mess. I kind of want to crawl into a hole and die and right now is when I have all these study groups and have to be working really hard. I want to go home, play some videogames, play with my Shiro, and not have to think about anything for a little while. I want to have time to read my book! I want Duker to come out so I can show him why I love where I live.
I have to pack, too, and I have no idea how I'm going to get everything where it needs to be. I'm just... overwhelmed with work and unstable about everything social.
In other news, the girl in this video looks exactly like I did when I was about 1 1/2 years old.
This pretty much sent me into a little depression. I guess the stress of finals (3 of which I have no idea how well I'm going to do on) along with this kind of... rejection of personality made me really upset. I just have a hard time dealing with rejection and I guess I'm just feeling like a lot of my friendships are kind of in a sinkhole right now and a lot of my friends are still, as far as I know, not sure if they're even going to be in Seattle this summer. I'm still waiting to find out about my summer internship, too, so I guess I'm just feeling more of the pressure about that, too, now that I've been rejected for one thing.
I just feel like everything is kind of slipping apart into an unsalvageable mess. I kind of want to crawl into a hole and die and right now is when I have all these study groups and have to be working really hard. I want to go home, play some videogames, play with my Shiro, and not have to think about anything for a little while. I want to have time to read my book! I want Duker to come out so I can show him why I love where I live.
I have to pack, too, and I have no idea how I'm going to get everything where it needs to be. I'm just... overwhelmed with work and unstable about everything social.
In other news, the girl in this video looks exactly like I did when I was about 1 1/2 years old.