seemed a harmless little thing
When prompted with the question, "Do you feel like you deserve a better life?" I responded, "I don't know." Do I? I don't know. I've always had this need to somehow justify everything good or bad that happens to me. Not to other people. Just to myself.
I can accept the idea that 'shit just happens sometimes'. It's a pretty accurate albeit vague summary of most situations in life. But my way of thinking is to wonder something like, "how did I let that shit happen?" or "should I have done something to prevent that shit?". The word 'shit', in this case, refers to those situations where things just seem to go awry.
My whole life I've been stalked by this unshake-able feeling of dread. Sometimes he'll take the day off. Dread. But he always comes back around to remind me that if I'm not careful then I may regret shit. They say that sort of thinking comes from having been witness to numerous occasions where 'the other shoe drops'. I don't know where that metaphor came from or how gravity and shoes might possibly be relevant to seeing bad things happen, as opposed to good, but, apparently it's a metaphor. One that people use. or used to use. Maybe there's more to that story of falling shoes to further explain itself. I don't know.
I can accept the idea that 'shit just happens sometimes'. It's a pretty accurate albeit vague summary of most situations in life. But my way of thinking is to wonder something like, "how did I let that shit happen?" or "should I have done something to prevent that shit?". The word 'shit', in this case, refers to those situations where things just seem to go awry.
My whole life I've been stalked by this unshake-able feeling of dread. Sometimes he'll take the day off. Dread. But he always comes back around to remind me that if I'm not careful then I may regret shit. They say that sort of thinking comes from having been witness to numerous occasions where 'the other shoe drops'. I don't know where that metaphor came from or how gravity and shoes might possibly be relevant to seeing bad things happen, as opposed to good, but, apparently it's a metaphor. One that people use. or used to use. Maybe there's more to that story of falling shoes to further explain itself. I don't know.