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So apparently my grandmother figured out that I smoke. It wouldn't be such a big deal if I didn't have to sit through a one hour long guilt trip talking about how I don't do anything around the house and how nothing I say can be believed because I'm a liar. I'm eighteen and I payed for those cigarettes with money that I worked for. Yes, it is money that came from doing oddjobs around the house but the fact that it is my money remains. She can't tell me what I can and can't spend it on. Especially when I am able by law to smoke and purchase cigarettes.
I can deal with all that but what's especially annoying is how somehow World War II always ends up in the discussion and how she had to go through all these hardships then. It's then followed up about how my dad, my sisters and just about everyone else doesn't "appreciate" her. I guess somehow it's ok to take all that out on me. She always says that she's not but why would someone say it if they didn't expect it to have some kind of effect, in this case guilt. I'm not sorry for what happened to her in WWII because I wasn't even alive then, I'm not sorry for what my father or my sisters have done because I am not my father or my sisters.
She tells me how I don't do anything around the house while sitting there next to a new set of doors that my father and I put in ourselves but that doesn't count. Amidst the guilt tripping is the thinly veiled threat of getting kicked out of the house and after hearing it so often all I can say is that if she's going to do it, do it already.
She keeps going on about how I'm irresponsible because I didn't graduate. Yes, I'm so irrisponsible that I'm going in tomorrow to enroll in a course that will allow me to receive a high school diploma, and I'm so irresponsible that I have applied to Pierce College.
Fuck, this is annoying.
I can deal with all that but what's especially annoying is how somehow World War II always ends up in the discussion and how she had to go through all these hardships then. It's then followed up about how my dad, my sisters and just about everyone else doesn't "appreciate" her. I guess somehow it's ok to take all that out on me. She always says that she's not but why would someone say it if they didn't expect it to have some kind of effect, in this case guilt. I'm not sorry for what happened to her in WWII because I wasn't even alive then, I'm not sorry for what my father or my sisters have done because I am not my father or my sisters.
She tells me how I don't do anything around the house while sitting there next to a new set of doors that my father and I put in ourselves but that doesn't count. Amidst the guilt tripping is the thinly veiled threat of getting kicked out of the house and after hearing it so often all I can say is that if she's going to do it, do it already.
She keeps going on about how I'm irresponsible because I didn't graduate. Yes, I'm so irrisponsible that I'm going in tomorrow to enroll in a course that will allow me to receive a high school diploma, and I'm so irresponsible that I have applied to Pierce College.
Fuck, this is annoying.