1 day less than 6 months. That would have been a record.
Sorry for not posting this last night!!
So...I feel like a terrable person. I hate hurting people, but I feel this had to happen.
I broke up with Dan tonight. And yes, I feel bad about it.
I feel selfish. I did this for myself even though I knew it would hurt both him and me. The thing is, I didn't feel that I was getting back everything I invested. I treated him like a king. In return, I didn't feel like I was getting treated the way I should have. Now I'm crying again. I wish it didn't happen on the phone. I wanted to feel his embrace again. I wanted to stare into the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen again. I wanted to kiss him again. I wanted to have him wipe away my tears. Instead, I sit here crying, trying to rationalize my thoughts to see if I did the right thing.
Being selfish shouldn't feel this bad, should it?
I just wasn't happy. I tried, I really did. I tried to convince myself that I could change him- that I could mold him into everything I wanted. But he is man and he is stubborn, and that is a good thing. I guess it's just a bunch of inner dynamics I don't want to get into right now. Lord knows who is reading and wants to ring my neck thinking I hurt their Dan.
He is an amazing person and is capable of so much. I just don't think he appreciated what he had when he had it.
I guess the saying is true- 'You don't realize what you had until it's gone'.
So...I feel like a terrable person. I hate hurting people, but I feel this had to happen.
I broke up with Dan tonight. And yes, I feel bad about it.
I feel selfish. I did this for myself even though I knew it would hurt both him and me. The thing is, I didn't feel that I was getting back everything I invested. I treated him like a king. In return, I didn't feel like I was getting treated the way I should have. Now I'm crying again. I wish it didn't happen on the phone. I wanted to feel his embrace again. I wanted to stare into the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen again. I wanted to kiss him again. I wanted to have him wipe away my tears. Instead, I sit here crying, trying to rationalize my thoughts to see if I did the right thing.
Being selfish shouldn't feel this bad, should it?
I just wasn't happy. I tried, I really did. I tried to convince myself that I could change him- that I could mold him into everything I wanted. But he is man and he is stubborn, and that is a good thing. I guess it's just a bunch of inner dynamics I don't want to get into right now. Lord knows who is reading and wants to ring my neck thinking I hurt their Dan.
He is an amazing person and is capable of so much. I just don't think he appreciated what he had when he had it.
I guess the saying is true- 'You don't realize what you had until it's gone'.