Why do I like Mike 2?
Current Mood: hopeless
Current Music: Easy on the Eyes- Terri Clark
"Now I realize you're easy on the eyes, hard on the heart."
Ugh, seriously.
So, Jake who we've covered I like, but makes NO SENSE to me, is a minor inconvenience.
He's so Mike-like, but better. And he's so cute. And he's smart. And if I wouldn't have gotten confused in the beginning, it would have been fine, but for a minute I thought he was into me. That messed it all up, and I allowed myself to like him, and... yeah.
So, he came in just now to see me (this is my last week at Classic) and he gets that big smile and comes up to my desk--the only reason he walked in was to say hi to me--and he's like, "There you are!"
And I look up, smile, say, "Hi."
"It's about time. Long time no see. It's been like days." (And as he says this, he's peering over the counter at my computer screen, because he wants to see what's on my computer.)
And with his smile and his sentiments of not liking not seeing me for days, I feel confused again. (I'm beginning to think i'm just attracted guys who can confuse me by emotionally jumping around in such an irrational way that I assume they're more complex than they, in fact, are.)
And for a second, I'm so confused that I don't know how to respond beyond a smiling, "I know..." Then, after a second, I gather my wits and say, "It's going to be even longer when I don't work here anymore."
"I know! Your last day is Saturday, huh?"
(And I told you he did the "you're leaving me?" thing, right?)
"Yep," I verify, nodding.
"That sucks," he says, actually seeming bummed that he won't see me anymore. "You'll still work at the restaurant though, right?"
"Yeah," I say, nodding.
"Well, I can come in there to eat and give you big tips."
And I grin, honest-to-goodness sucked back in to the point that I would spend this weekend also waiting by the damn phone.
And then, because he already has me in the state that I need to be in, he says he'll see me later and he walks away.
And I am left sitting here, dumbfounded and confused.
He acts like he likes me, but he doesn't want to hang out with me. I mean, I didn't ask to have his babies or anything, I just thought a dollar movie would be fun.
So... I don't know.
Every time that he teases me like this, when he walks away--and I watch, of course, because why not?--I literally feel my nerves shudder from the inside. Like, I do the "pulling my hair out" thing, and I can feel all my nerve ends going nuts, and I'm like, "WTF!"
In other, closely related news, Chad is back.
He texted me complaining and asking why I deleted him, and I told him, and then he said it was a misunderstanding, his computer just died and yada yada yada, so I refriended him.
But I don't understand.
Perhaps Jake just likes the light, undercurrent of flirty-ness that is there in our interactions and he just likes the attention right now, but he doesn't want me to get the wrong idea that he wants anything more, so he's trying to... just....
Well, be me.
Because normally i'm the one that just likes casual flirty interactions with no strings and no expectations of any kind.
This means he would have been EXACTLY what I wanted to find if only I wouldn't have gotten the wrong idea right off that he might like me, and I was in the mood for a boyfriend post-Jeremy-being-a-letdown, so... yeah.
BOO.
Boys suck.
Current Music: Easy on the Eyes- Terri Clark
"Now I realize you're easy on the eyes, hard on the heart."
Ugh, seriously.
So, Jake who we've covered I like, but makes NO SENSE to me, is a minor inconvenience.
He's so Mike-like, but better. And he's so cute. And he's smart. And if I wouldn't have gotten confused in the beginning, it would have been fine, but for a minute I thought he was into me. That messed it all up, and I allowed myself to like him, and... yeah.
So, he came in just now to see me (this is my last week at Classic) and he gets that big smile and comes up to my desk--the only reason he walked in was to say hi to me--and he's like, "There you are!"
And I look up, smile, say, "Hi."
"It's about time. Long time no see. It's been like days." (And as he says this, he's peering over the counter at my computer screen, because he wants to see what's on my computer.)
And with his smile and his sentiments of not liking not seeing me for days, I feel confused again. (I'm beginning to think i'm just attracted guys who can confuse me by emotionally jumping around in such an irrational way that I assume they're more complex than they, in fact, are.)
And for a second, I'm so confused that I don't know how to respond beyond a smiling, "I know..." Then, after a second, I gather my wits and say, "It's going to be even longer when I don't work here anymore."
"I know! Your last day is Saturday, huh?"
(And I told you he did the "you're leaving me?" thing, right?)
"Yep," I verify, nodding.
"That sucks," he says, actually seeming bummed that he won't see me anymore. "You'll still work at the restaurant though, right?"
"Yeah," I say, nodding.
"Well, I can come in there to eat and give you big tips."
And I grin, honest-to-goodness sucked back in to the point that I would spend this weekend also waiting by the damn phone.
And then, because he already has me in the state that I need to be in, he says he'll see me later and he walks away.
And I am left sitting here, dumbfounded and confused.
He acts like he likes me, but he doesn't want to hang out with me. I mean, I didn't ask to have his babies or anything, I just thought a dollar movie would be fun.
So... I don't know.
Every time that he teases me like this, when he walks away--and I watch, of course, because why not?--I literally feel my nerves shudder from the inside. Like, I do the "pulling my hair out" thing, and I can feel all my nerve ends going nuts, and I'm like, "WTF!"
In other, closely related news, Chad is back.
He texted me complaining and asking why I deleted him, and I told him, and then he said it was a misunderstanding, his computer just died and yada yada yada, so I refriended him.
But I don't understand.
Perhaps Jake just likes the light, undercurrent of flirty-ness that is there in our interactions and he just likes the attention right now, but he doesn't want me to get the wrong idea that he wants anything more, so he's trying to... just....
Well, be me.
Because normally i'm the one that just likes casual flirty interactions with no strings and no expectations of any kind.
This means he would have been EXACTLY what I wanted to find if only I wouldn't have gotten the wrong idea right off that he might like me, and I was in the mood for a boyfriend post-Jeremy-being-a-letdown, so... yeah.
BOO.
Boys suck.