A Single Green Light 1/1

[writen0w]

Title: A Single Green Light
Author: writen0w
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 3,502
Summary: Things with Jared are going fine. So fine, in fact, that Jensen's struggling more and more to tell his boyfriend about his asexuality.
A/N: Written for this prompt during the last round of blindfold_spn.

Comments

[dopeyangel101]

wow.

A really different take on a relationship, love it. Nice to see something like this :)

[writen0w]

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me <3
I'm really glad you liked it. And yes, sadly, asexual visibility is still far too low.

[mangacat201]

Very compelling. You still want them to get somewhere with it, no matter what, sharing everything there is to share, because they're so perfect for each other. But it's also fascinating how loving someone past the fact that they don't fit in the ordinary categories can work and be fullfilling in a different way.

[writen0w]

Thank you so much for your words. I thought a lot about them.
I don't know if you mean by sharing everything there is to share that they should sleep together? There's always this association in society that ultimate closeness and intimacy can only be reached via sexual acts, but for Jensen, it isn't like that at all. Doing something romantic (like here the massage or cuddling), fulfills him. There isn't anything in him that wants, craves or needs sexual contact.

Anyway... I'm sorry for rambling about that to you :) Thank you so much for reading and sharing your thoughts <3

[mangacat201]

Yes, that was what I found so intriguing, that as a reader, you're still wired to *want* for the story to go that way (into an actual sexual relationship that is) because that's where it's supposed to go, right? Wrong, because there are people out there who feel differently and who still manage to make their relationships work, for which this was a stunningly intimate and heart-warming example. Teaches you that even though you think you're world-savy and tolerant and open-minded that your brain is playing tricks on you sometimes, and suddenly nuture comes knocking at the back door. Makes rarities like this, who unapologetically celebrate those differences stand out all the more.
Does that clarify my previous comment a bit? (and yes, I was aware of the pitfalls of interpretation in there but couldn't come up with a better way to say it...)
Cat

[writen0w]

Oh, wow. I think I get it now :D And I absolutely agree with you on everything you just said.

Also, I can't begin to tell you how happy it makes me to know that the fic evoked this kind of feeling... Thank you again!

[somer]

God, this must be frustrating for Jensen. Wanting to have a loving relationship but always having this fear of being rejected! Good god we have Jared ;)

Interesting and perfect. Loved it! :)

[writen0w]

It is indeed. I don't know about their future, but for now, it seems to work for them :)

Thank you so much for reading, I'm really glad you liked it <3

[spn_j2fan]

This was just lovely. I was so happy to see that Jensen didn't suddenly "change," and become wantonly sexual once Jared accepted him. They seem to have a long way to go, but it sounds like they may just have a chance.

I've never read anything like this. You did a fantastic job! :)

[writen0w]

Aww, thank you <3

Nope, even Jared isn't going to change Jensen's sexuality. And I agree, there's a lot they'll have to figure out and discuss, but they're willing to try, and maybe they'll make it.

Thank you so much for reading!

[spnmonster]

This was very, very interesting and thought provoking. In most relationships probably the partners have different levels of desire at one point or another, and it can cause disappointment and conflict. Asexuality is probably the most invisible level of desire to society, and it's great that you are exploring it here

[quiet000001]

Honestly, it probably depends on exactly HOW Jensen defines as asexual, and also how Jared feels about things - I know folks who define as asexual who have no significant problem with doing something like giving a partner a helping hand, so to speak. It's not really sexual for THEM, more like the way Jensen feels about the massage ('yay, I made Jared feel good, cool!') but it still fulfills the partner's desire for some kind of sexual interaction

[spnmonster]

I'm left now thinking of the mechanics, so to speak, of this. It's easier for me to imagine a woman being asexual than a man simply because men's arousal is so ubiquitous. So, I wonder does Jensen just not have erections or does he not feel the need to do anything about them? If it's the latter that could lead to health issues. (I hear there's nothing like going to a urologist for a prostate massage to relieve the back up ... or maybe not depending on his hormone levels.) If it's the former, would he not seek medical advice on whether there's a physical reason he has no desire. I know that sounds like 'there's something wrong with being asexual,' and I don't necessarily mean that. But from a personal perspective, I've gone through some very long periods where I had no sexual desire and it is extremely difficult deal with on a number of levels. (If I could have taken hormones to 'fix' things, believe me, I would have.) It is hard to not feel like there is something wrong with you. After all, our society fixates on it, and it would have

[quiet000001]

It's actually a topic that's gotten a fair number of stories from various points of view over in BBC Sherlock fandom - I don't know if that's your thing, but I know some of the stories are generally considered quite good