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i dnt feel like wrighting everything i just wrote on myspace again. i dnt feel good and i dnt want to get into it. kaitlyn had me go home so she could be alone, i dnt think she said i love you, its not her fault.
i hung out with phill, it was nice to see him again. i think it would be fun to go to divias on tuesday cause its goth night, now that would be fun, maybe that would be what i need right now. kaitlyns going to a club, never thought to invite me, its good cause i think she should have some time with her friends, iv been a pain lately anyways. she probly could use the time to relax and unwind. if she dose ask me to go now i would say no cause it would only be cause i put up a fuss about it, it hurt me. im so paraniod i always think shes gona do something. im so afraid of being hert(iv seen the bad love can do, and with kaitlyn it happened so fast there is no controle, but it was right.) i need to stop that, and not care if she dose. all i want to do is spend time with her, i kinda scares me how dependant i am on her, how she is all i think about and ever do. but im so glad i have some one, no its only because its her, no one else is nearly as great as she is. i read a card that i wish i had bought, it had music on it, i dnt remember what it said, but it was something about how love is like music, (something realy cute and how she is all i need, something) but music is very important to me, i like it cause its like therapy (when i feel depressedi put on heavy music and it makes me feel better) she is like that. i just feel so funny and confused. i wonder where all my friends have gone(it i ever had any) cause i think i chaise ppl away and then wonder why they dnt notice that it was because something was wrong.
i hung out with phill, it was nice to see him again. i think it would be fun to go to divias on tuesday cause its goth night, now that would be fun, maybe that would be what i need right now. kaitlyns going to a club, never thought to invite me, its good cause i think she should have some time with her friends, iv been a pain lately anyways. she probly could use the time to relax and unwind. if she dose ask me to go now i would say no cause it would only be cause i put up a fuss about it, it hurt me. im so paraniod i always think shes gona do something. im so afraid of being hert(iv seen the bad love can do, and with kaitlyn it happened so fast there is no controle, but it was right.) i need to stop that, and not care if she dose. all i want to do is spend time with her, i kinda scares me how dependant i am on her, how she is all i think about and ever do. but im so glad i have some one, no its only because its her, no one else is nearly as great as she is. i read a card that i wish i had bought, it had music on it, i dnt remember what it said, but it was something about how love is like music, (something realy cute and how she is all i need, something) but music is very important to me, i like it cause its like therapy (when i feel depressedi put on heavy music and it makes me feel better) she is like that. i just feel so funny and confused. i wonder where all my friends have gone(it i ever had any) cause i think i chaise ppl away and then wonder why they dnt notice that it was because something was wrong.