no regrets...
Okay, I've told my parents about my impending Chem disaster and they're actually pretty cool about it. Probably because they've seen how psychotic I've been this term and they probably think that giving me a lecture will only send me over the edge. I guess I WILL have to come to terms with this. I mean, this is a monster of my own making and it's too late for me to try and change anything now. All I can do is brace myself and try to do better next time I guess...
All in all an extremely educational term...the toughest one I've endured(?) so far. I'm making headway on that whole "taking-control-of-my-life" thing I guess. I've put some distance between myself and the people who are causing me to act in ways I do not like. I've let go of that person (well okay, I didn't actually TELL him but I've told myself and that counts right?) who've I've been mentally clinging to because I was afraid of not having someone to love. I've pretty much decided to chuck out all that bottled anger in me (although I'm not completely done yet and goodness knows it's not easy for me).
A lot of things went crazy. Nothing went according to how I planned it during the start of the term. I suspect I will be threatening to kill myself again when I get my course card so I'll do this now that I'm still somewhat rational.
All in all, no regrets.