i am so screwed.
And not in a good way.
I am so going to fail OrgChem2 and I don't know how to deal with it. Okay yeah, I can manage it so that I'll graduate on time but God!!! I don't want to fail!!! But I don't see how I can possibly pass that subject since I needed at least 50% of that final exam and it was a total killer and I really really really really did not know a single damn thing about what I was writing.
I mean, other people have passed this subject before and other people are acing this subject now, am I really that stupid?! Quite possibly. I should NOT have tried to do all this with being a DO Paragon and the whole batch assembly thing...I hate to admit it but it's just way too much for me to handle.
So I'm going to fail chem, what do I do now? I've got six more miserable days to contemplate ways on how to escape it but I know I won't rest until I see that solid 0.0 myself. Well I'm not the type to needlessly bemoan my grades, unlike some people I know (who are very nice people by the way), I do not obsess about my grades...well at least not out loud. I don't gripe about every single detail of what I got wrong on a test etc, I usually fold up my failed papers and just strive to do better. I don't like subjecting people to my anxieties. They have enough of their own to deal with. Besides, no one wants to listen to me gripe anyway.
So after getting my failed OrgChem2 course card, do I collect all my other cards first or do I proceed directly to blowing my brains out? Or more realistically, swallowing a fistful of pills? I don't think I'm the type to expect unrealistic things from myself but I had expected myself to get through college without failing a subject. Apparently that's not going to happen.
So if I do decide to kill myself after I confim that I've failed Chem, please inform my parents that they had nothing to do with it. It was all me and that fact that I'm so fucking stupid I can't even pass this stupid subject. Oh, and can someone clear it up with Rache and Tets too? I'm sure they'd want to know what happened if I do kill myself.
As for everyone else, I don't really think they'd give a rat's ass as long as their lives are in order.
I am so going to fail OrgChem2 and I don't know how to deal with it. Okay yeah, I can manage it so that I'll graduate on time but God!!! I don't want to fail!!! But I don't see how I can possibly pass that subject since I needed at least 50% of that final exam and it was a total killer and I really really really really did not know a single damn thing about what I was writing.
I mean, other people have passed this subject before and other people are acing this subject now, am I really that stupid?! Quite possibly. I should NOT have tried to do all this with being a DO Paragon and the whole batch assembly thing...I hate to admit it but it's just way too much for me to handle.
So I'm going to fail chem, what do I do now? I've got six more miserable days to contemplate ways on how to escape it but I know I won't rest until I see that solid 0.0 myself. Well I'm not the type to needlessly bemoan my grades, unlike some people I know (who are very nice people by the way), I do not obsess about my grades...well at least not out loud. I don't gripe about every single detail of what I got wrong on a test etc, I usually fold up my failed papers and just strive to do better. I don't like subjecting people to my anxieties. They have enough of their own to deal with. Besides, no one wants to listen to me gripe anyway.
So after getting my failed OrgChem2 course card, do I collect all my other cards first or do I proceed directly to blowing my brains out? Or more realistically, swallowing a fistful of pills? I don't think I'm the type to expect unrealistic things from myself but I had expected myself to get through college without failing a subject. Apparently that's not going to happen.
So if I do decide to kill myself after I confim that I've failed Chem, please inform my parents that they had nothing to do with it. It was all me and that fact that I'm so fucking stupid I can't even pass this stupid subject. Oh, and can someone clear it up with Rache and Tets too? I'm sure they'd want to know what happened if I do kill myself.
As for everyone else, I don't really think they'd give a rat's ass as long as their lives are in order.