ears ringin, sore, cranky
It's been a while since I updated, been a bad couple weeks for me. Holidays aren't too forgiving to a person in my position.
I feel betrayed a bit... sad. the lonliness really creeped up on my bad today as well.
all of this nonsenes rattling through my head today I had to break the silence.
I called and called... everyone was busy or not. or just doing something w/ a signifigant other. wasn't about to play 5th wheel tonight I already felt like shit.
So I drove up to the Neo, all by my lonesome, and I didn't meet anyone, didn't really talk w/ anyone w/ teh exeption of the occational excuse me or ordering a drink.
I did however burn off like a trillion caleries on the dancefloor tonight. My whole body is sore and I kinda like that. I think I worked out some of that built up agnst.
No Heather, No Misty, No Mija, no Lilac.... Katie called, which really threw off my balance. I totally didn't expect to hear from her of all people, figured she'd be out running about w/ her boi.
I feel like Heather is seeing someone and not telling me again. sure she isn't telling me something thats for sure, everything is a fuckin riddle w/ her. Everyone is pushing me to get back w/ her and yet I still feel like I can't trust a word out of her mouth. not exactly a sound foundation for a relationship and not to mention this wouldn't be the first time I busted her out on BSing me around like this.
I don't know what the deal is w/ Misty, is she too busy, did she not like me... whatever. I don't fuckin care, she isn't there for me to talk to and that... pretty much solves the whole riddle there.
sigh...
lots of bad thoughts tonight I'm happy I got out of here when I did...
sorry if this was a downer folks, can't be helped, for now be at peace kiddies
I feel betrayed a bit... sad. the lonliness really creeped up on my bad today as well.
all of this nonsenes rattling through my head today I had to break the silence.
I called and called... everyone was busy or not. or just doing something w/ a signifigant other. wasn't about to play 5th wheel tonight I already felt like shit.
So I drove up to the Neo, all by my lonesome, and I didn't meet anyone, didn't really talk w/ anyone w/ teh exeption of the occational excuse me or ordering a drink.
I did however burn off like a trillion caleries on the dancefloor tonight. My whole body is sore and I kinda like that. I think I worked out some of that built up agnst.
No Heather, No Misty, No Mija, no Lilac.... Katie called, which really threw off my balance. I totally didn't expect to hear from her of all people, figured she'd be out running about w/ her boi.
I feel like Heather is seeing someone and not telling me again. sure she isn't telling me something thats for sure, everything is a fuckin riddle w/ her. Everyone is pushing me to get back w/ her and yet I still feel like I can't trust a word out of her mouth. not exactly a sound foundation for a relationship and not to mention this wouldn't be the first time I busted her out on BSing me around like this.
I don't know what the deal is w/ Misty, is she too busy, did she not like me... whatever. I don't fuckin care, she isn't there for me to talk to and that... pretty much solves the whole riddle there.
sigh...
lots of bad thoughts tonight I'm happy I got out of here when I did...
sorry if this was a downer folks, can't be helped, for now be at peace kiddies