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UGH i cant stand him!!!!! i hate my brother like no other. i wish i could trade him in for someone or something else. cant we trade him in for a nice dog or something? i made dinner for my dad tonight. and my brother ate some, and he said thanks dinner was good. and i just looked at him and said i didnt make it for you. and he left and my dad went crazy saying that it was so messed up and everything. like i even care. im so sick of cleaning up after my brother all the time he cant even wipe his own ass with out someone cleaning it up for him. so he left the dish on the counter and i was about 3 seconds from throwing it at him head which i really would have if my dad wasnt right there. instead i took the baby gate and blocked off his hallway and put the dish and cup on the other side of the gate. i refuse to touch his dishes. i will fromt his day on put all his dirty dishes on the other side of the gate. ugh so now my dad is going crazy at me saying it was so wrong for me to do that to my poor brother how is jsut an angel and isnt a slob and does everything right. UGh i mean he cant even get his ass up for school and graduate in the spring! he makes me sick i have never hated anyone like i hate him. dad said that if he ever heard me talk that way again i can just move out. ok thats fine chris wants to live together anyways, so there you go. my brother is nothing more that a worthless piece of shit thats good for nothing. a liar and a slob. if it was up to me he would be at military school and couldnt go and do anything. restrictions up hte ass. but my dad is such a worthless father how doesnt know how to control his son lets him lie and skip school. im so upset right now im ready to cut. im trying really hard not to thats why im writing on lj right now and just screaming on here. maybe it will take some anger out and i lose the urge to cut myself. UGH how did he get to be such a fucking slob! he does it just to piss me off i cant stand it! I HATE HIM SO MUCH. i refuse to talk to him or look at his white trash ass. he is white trash he dresses like it and hangs out with white trash. and we live in a nice house and in a nice part of town we arent at all white trash. but i guess he likes that. i dontk now why. my dad UGH makes me made to he goes on and on about how he is going to take my brothers car away and ground him or life, and then never does it. he lets him do whatever he wants to. i never would have been able to get away with the stuff he does. my mom would have killed me. but no because its ronny he gets to do whatever his little heart wants to do cause he is ronny. perfect ronny. WHITE TRASH WORTHLESS RONNY! i really need to stop im so wanting to. STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT! I should use the marker idea like someone told me but it hink i might try to push the marker in my arm and hope it would some how cut me! i wish he would jsut drive off the road and never come home. id be a lot happier if he did.