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today was another crappy day. nothing great happened again. we had a dinner for my stupid worthless brother tonight for his birthday or whatever. grandma and grandpa didnt come over cause ronny was rather rude to my grandma a few days back. so just misty and the kids came over. i have that job interview tomorrow. i talked to chris last night. hmmmmmm we got in a huge fight last night. he wants to go to texas when i go there, ten move in with each other. and well frankly i just dont want to do that. im not ready to move in with someone. and he got made at me when i said i needed time to think about all of this. he made me feel so horrible cause i dont want to get all close this soon again. i need time to take it all in all over again and just not jump into this. i mean am i right? my dad agrees with me. its liek the whole marriage thing. sure i think about it all the time and wish for it to happen, but when it does happen. its a scary thing you know? and its not something you can just jump in to right? now i just dont know what to say to him. somebody help me figure this shit out.im so upset with myself. i brought it on, its all my fault. i pesonally want to live at home for the rest of my life if i could,w ell maybe Not that long, but as long as i can. so right now im not on best terms with him or rather i just want some away space to take in all of this.