I really aught to get over this.
So. I guess I'm still pissy over the Christmas drama w/ Joe's youngest sister, Beth. I keep replaying our argument, wishing I'd remained calmer so I could have said everything I wanted to rather than just melting down into pure rage like I did. I'm somewhat miffed at myself for that, but she was complaining about my Lilly watching a Sesame Street video. Sorry, a 3 year old quietly sitting on the floor watching Seseme Street on a lap-top computer is not something an 18 year old should get pissy about and it woke up my Mama Bear instincts. Grrr. <--that's a bear.
At this point I'm not sure if I should just pretend that nothing happened the next time I see her, or make an attempt to say what I want to. I know that personally I need to get it all off my chest, or else I'm just going to explode (again) but on the other hand she's (unfortunatly) family and I'm stuck with the bitch forever and ever amen. I'd rather not become the point of tension btwn Joe and his family because his sister is a spoiled brat (which everyone already knows) and I can't keep my mouth shut about it.
I guess this post is prompted by more Mama Bear instincts. Joe's oldest sister just gave birth (4 weeks early! Yikes!) to a little girl. Beth's facebook response to Emmerson's birth was this:
I saw that and I couldn't remember if she had even aknowledged the birth of my children. Now I don't count Alta, since Beth was only 12 at the time and not on FB, no biggie. I just went back, first, to Lilly. I looked back (thank you FB timeline) and saw that, even though we were living in the same house as her at the time, Lilly's birth was completly ignored and instead her excitement about a trip to Disney Land was mentioned instead.
(there were no posts between these two, Lilly was born on the 17th)
And I suppose I shouldn't be miffed at all when it comes to her big anouncement of Maddie's birth, after all it was mentioned. Sort of. In passing.
If she doesn't like me, whatever, the feeling is more than mutual. What gets me is the way she just ignores my children and/or gives them sideways looks for doing things that kids will do. I don't know if she doesn't realize that my children are also the children of her brother or not. 'Course she's all over the pictures of the other-brother's kiddo, who's just a few months older than Mae is. Perhaps I'm looking at this all much too closely and with an eye to put Beth in the worst light, but it feels like she's pointedly ignoring my kids simply because they're mine.
(case in point, when Carter was born):
It really just pisses me off (as if you couldn't tell). I know I should just let it go but I've been watching Beth be a bitch to not only me, but to her own mother, my husband, and my children, since she was 9 years old. At what point do I get to tell her if she doesn't change she's going to be in a world of hurt when her parents are dead, her siblings have their own kids to look after, and she's alone in the world because she can't figure out how to treat people properly?
Gaaahhhh! *headdesk*
Oh, and Emmerson and her mama are both expected to be ok. The baby weighed in at 4lbs 4oz and is doing well considering her early appearance.