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[wouldbe]

believe me when i say that i want to find my way out of this. i just don't see any options or routes. i wish that someone understand how i feel these days just by looking at me but no one seems to get it. i've been freaking out more than usual and would prefer sleeping to being awake most of the time. i feel like i don't have a place or a future that i'm really all that interested in. everything is a bit of a battle and i'm almost always bored. but, really, honestly, i do want to be happy - it's just hard.

i guess when you get down to it, it doesn't matter whether i'm here or there. this one's on the inside.