A Week and a Day

[worstficever]

I honestly do not know how much more of this I can take before I explode. Something will happen. Someone will say something. Someone will do something. And inside that last shred of sanity and dignity I have been clutching on to like an old woman clutches on to her purse in a dark alley will just snap and whoever it is will fall victim to the wrong place at the wrong time.

I'm just angry all the time right now. Losing friends because they blame shit on me that isn't my fault but I take it because I'd rather they have something to displace their anger on. People getting elected positions that they are less qualified for because I'm not the happy go lucky person that they are. People just getting moodier by the day and everyone at levels of high emotion. Snowing every night. I can't do it anymore.

I hate this school. I've always hated this school. Sometimes I get comfortable and don't think about it, but at the end of the day I hate my life because I went to Ripon.

I need to come home. I need Spring Break. And I need to graduate and get the fuck away from here or I will snap. I will snap. I am broken inside and someone will pay for it. This school has turned me cold and calloused and someone will bear the grunt of it. Some innocent bystander.

What's that line from Fight Club-- "I want to destroy something beautiful."

I will snap.