Delightful
That's what she is. Simply delightful. Her conversation, her companionship, her service, all delight me. This weekend, she came to my home, and we spent two days working together, doing both mundane activities like grocery shopping, and tasks related to specific projects of mine. I loved every minute of it, every moment of her.
This woman in my life feels like reward and reminder. Already she has helped me focus my own energies--not just on her, but on areas of importance in my own life. She has taken on a pivotal role on key projects that have already resulted in progress. This is BIG stuff for me! We are doing good stuff together. I'm very grateful, every day.
Looking around my room tonight, I have to smile. There is still much to do, but so much has already been cleared away. Not just things in my room, mind you. Outmoded thinking, ancient emotions, predictable patterns... I decided months and months ago to use this year in service to my personal and spiritual development. At the time, I had no idea it was a conscious choice. I knew only that my face was flat to the floor, that I had been taken down to the most basic level, and that this pain was part of the larger plan. I thought that my only choice was the decision to find my way back up, to learn the lessons and to find my footing once more. Now I know that the entire process has been of my choosing. Spirit granted me the opportunities I needed to grow toward my destiny, and I took them. I took them pretty hard, I'll admit. This year has been so painful, across all areas of my life, that I wondered how I was going to make sense of it all. I still don't understand all that's transpired, but I do know this: painful as it's been, it's been necessary...and well worth it.
For the first time in a long while, I'm wanting to celebrate. As I look around my room, around my life, it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas... My mom is still maintaining, getting stronger after her stroke. My dad is still exempt from dialysis, and so far, all the test are coming back clear--no cancer. My sister is happy with her new job, her new marriage, and her impending move. My bills are getting paid, and I finally have health insurance again. My padrino and I continue to get closer, and the Orishas and the ancestors still have much in store for me. Yes, it's time to celebrate all the goodness in my life. After all, I've already received one of the best gifts there is. And it's time now to give her a call, and let her know yet again how happy I am to have her.
This woman in my life feels like reward and reminder. Already she has helped me focus my own energies--not just on her, but on areas of importance in my own life. She has taken on a pivotal role on key projects that have already resulted in progress. This is BIG stuff for me! We are doing good stuff together. I'm very grateful, every day.
Looking around my room tonight, I have to smile. There is still much to do, but so much has already been cleared away. Not just things in my room, mind you. Outmoded thinking, ancient emotions, predictable patterns... I decided months and months ago to use this year in service to my personal and spiritual development. At the time, I had no idea it was a conscious choice. I knew only that my face was flat to the floor, that I had been taken down to the most basic level, and that this pain was part of the larger plan. I thought that my only choice was the decision to find my way back up, to learn the lessons and to find my footing once more. Now I know that the entire process has been of my choosing. Spirit granted me the opportunities I needed to grow toward my destiny, and I took them. I took them pretty hard, I'll admit. This year has been so painful, across all areas of my life, that I wondered how I was going to make sense of it all. I still don't understand all that's transpired, but I do know this: painful as it's been, it's been necessary...and well worth it.
For the first time in a long while, I'm wanting to celebrate. As I look around my room, around my life, it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas... My mom is still maintaining, getting stronger after her stroke. My dad is still exempt from dialysis, and so far, all the test are coming back clear--no cancer. My sister is happy with her new job, her new marriage, and her impending move. My bills are getting paid, and I finally have health insurance again. My padrino and I continue to get closer, and the Orishas and the ancestors still have much in store for me. Yes, it's time to celebrate all the goodness in my life. After all, I've already received one of the best gifts there is. And it's time now to give her a call, and let her know yet again how happy I am to have her.