Poem-Soul-Less Me
Started writing, this is what came of it...
Created by Ashley on Tuesday, July 07, 2009
How two enemies became friends
And somewhere else
Two friends enemies
How the world was one way
And I woke up and it was all different
Like I was transported to another world
Not knowing what to do
Friends changing too
The choices I have made everyday
Got me where I am
Some days I like it
Some days I don't
I see myself in different lights
And people see me in different ways
So what color is my heart today
Does it care, is it numb
Is it angry
This is no fun
Trying to guess what emotions
Will come, from different things
It is like a world
That brings so much pain
And adding more to it
Brings more deaths
More chaos
More tears
And fighting isn't an option
For them anymore
And nothing they could do
Would make them feel like they mattered
Because they were bashed, attacked
By people that wanna feel better about themselves
It is all about self-esteem
And many people's are low
Even mine
So myself I have been told
And I believe it to be true
Because I can see it too
And I don't know where I am going with my words
This is difficult
But it is like I am in the unknown
Where nothing is solid
And I am floating around
Where is the solid ground
Where are my feet
How can I see
When the world is spinning like a top
Climbing, but then the mountain is upside down
And I am back to square one
What does my heart fight for
How can it
When it is so sick and infected
What does my mind think for
How can it
When it is so demented and uncaring
How does my soul work
When it is no longer part of my body
How can it help me
When it isn't here
I am soul-less now
But how
I never saw it leave
I never felt it go
But now its presence isn't known
And I wonder if it ever was there
Or if it left the moment it got in
Because there was no room for it
In my life of mistakes
In the damage I caused
Maybe it is just locked up
And I haven't the key to free it
But I can still talk to it
As if it were my friend
It just isn't apart of me
And I can't save it
It is another one I let down
All my regret filled its place
And it was its same weight
This is great
I have no more room for it in me
Maybe that is why I act like a freak
And only logic, not emotions
Can save me
Created by Ashley on Tuesday, July 07, 2009
How two enemies became friends
And somewhere else
Two friends enemies
How the world was one way
And I woke up and it was all different
Like I was transported to another world
Not knowing what to do
Friends changing too
The choices I have made everyday
Got me where I am
Some days I like it
Some days I don't
I see myself in different lights
And people see me in different ways
So what color is my heart today
Does it care, is it numb
Is it angry
This is no fun
Trying to guess what emotions
Will come, from different things
It is like a world
That brings so much pain
And adding more to it
Brings more deaths
More chaos
More tears
And fighting isn't an option
For them anymore
And nothing they could do
Would make them feel like they mattered
Because they were bashed, attacked
By people that wanna feel better about themselves
It is all about self-esteem
And many people's are low
Even mine
So myself I have been told
And I believe it to be true
Because I can see it too
And I don't know where I am going with my words
This is difficult
But it is like I am in the unknown
Where nothing is solid
And I am floating around
Where is the solid ground
Where are my feet
How can I see
When the world is spinning like a top
Climbing, but then the mountain is upside down
And I am back to square one
What does my heart fight for
How can it
When it is so sick and infected
What does my mind think for
How can it
When it is so demented and uncaring
How does my soul work
When it is no longer part of my body
How can it help me
When it isn't here
I am soul-less now
But how
I never saw it leave
I never felt it go
But now its presence isn't known
And I wonder if it ever was there
Or if it left the moment it got in
Because there was no room for it
In my life of mistakes
In the damage I caused
Maybe it is just locked up
And I haven't the key to free it
But I can still talk to it
As if it were my friend
It just isn't apart of me
And I can't save it
It is another one I let down
All my regret filled its place
And it was its same weight
This is great
I have no more room for it in me
Maybe that is why I act like a freak
And only logic, not emotions
Can save me