I Changed So Much

[worldprotector]

I have been reading though some of my old poetry. I used to be so strong. I used to have such a good fighting spirit. What happened to that? How did I become so...incapable? What happened to me? Did I finally give into the emotions that have been tormenting me my whole life? These questions that I ask myself add to my confusion, yet open my eyes up. As a teenager, I was stronger. I had more to fight for. I was nicer. I was so friend and world oriented and I call myself "worldprotector" now? I should have called myself that back then...back when I was more vulerable to everyone else. Back when my heart was so open. I saw people with such different eyes than I do now. I saw so much good in them. I made so many excuses for them. Is this what growing up is really about? See the world in a darker, more realistic way? As a little kid, I was very serious. I saw the world differently back then...what is weird is from what I remember of my childhood, my mindset was similar to the way it is now. What will my view point be two years from now? Ten years from now? Do I live only to see the changes taking place inside of me?

That was a break from my poetry posting for a few minutes, now I will go read some more and see which ones I want to put up on here.

Also, hopefully, I will be able to write more journals like this. Journals that describe my feelings and observations.