Worst BDay
Warning: MAJOR complaining....
All I can say is hopefully my next birthday will be better. (Well that is not ALL I can say, obviously, that was just my opening statement.)
My friends---Everyday friends, didn't really give a shit about it being my birthday. I mean they barely messaged me at all, some didn't even message me. One of them has been ignoring me for a long time now....God they can be so selfish...especially when I tried to make sure their bday was good/special or whatever....I hate how people treat me sometimes. I mean with some of them, I try to make it special EVERY time I see them! And what do they do for me?...IGNORE me, basically......Screw how people treat me.....
Today was hardly about me at all. It was mainly about what everyone else wants to do, which doesn't usually bother me normally....It is it was supposed to MY special day...the one day of the year that I get...that is about me....a day I can treasure....
Yeah, worst birthday I ever had. And I was SO looking forward to it. I...am so disappointed....I am torn up. I feel so unimportant.....Why? That is what I can ask. Why did it have to be this way?
You know maybe it would have been better if I had gotten more sleep.
I was stupid to expect it to go well. I was stupid to have hope........
Note to self: Expect things to be shitty...ALL the time. You don't GET "specail days"...or even A SPECAIL DAY! Not one freaking day of the year can be YOUR specail day, Ashley....
And I can't even spell right now.
I have been crushed. I have been thrown into an the fire that is burning me even as I speak. I can't move. I can't get out. Yeah that is what I get for having hope.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Yeah there is my stupid false hope again.
I should have taken my friend's advice. Then I wouldn't be so screwed up right now.
Ok, whatever....I guess I will try to forgive everyone now....Key word being TRY....
I don't want to fix my spelling errors.
I need to GET OVER IT!!
But couldn't they give me MY day. My ONE day of the year?
It is ALWAYS about them. And then when it is about me, people are too caught up in their own shit to even care if I have a good day or not.
All I can say is hopefully my next birthday will be better. (Well that is not ALL I can say, obviously, that was just my opening statement.)
My friends---Everyday friends, didn't really give a shit about it being my birthday. I mean they barely messaged me at all, some didn't even message me. One of them has been ignoring me for a long time now....God they can be so selfish...especially when I tried to make sure their bday was good/special or whatever....I hate how people treat me sometimes. I mean with some of them, I try to make it special EVERY time I see them! And what do they do for me?...IGNORE me, basically......Screw how people treat me.....
Today was hardly about me at all. It was mainly about what everyone else wants to do, which doesn't usually bother me normally....It is it was supposed to MY special day...the one day of the year that I get...that is about me....a day I can treasure....
Yeah, worst birthday I ever had. And I was SO looking forward to it. I...am so disappointed....I am torn up. I feel so unimportant.....Why? That is what I can ask. Why did it have to be this way?
You know maybe it would have been better if I had gotten more sleep.
I was stupid to expect it to go well. I was stupid to have hope........
Note to self: Expect things to be shitty...ALL the time. You don't GET "specail days"...or even A SPECAIL DAY! Not one freaking day of the year can be YOUR specail day, Ashley....
And I can't even spell right now.
I have been crushed. I have been thrown into an the fire that is burning me even as I speak. I can't move. I can't get out. Yeah that is what I get for having hope.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Yeah there is my stupid false hope again.
I should have taken my friend's advice. Then I wouldn't be so screwed up right now.
Ok, whatever....I guess I will try to forgive everyone now....Key word being TRY....
I don't want to fix my spelling errors.
I need to GET OVER IT!!
But couldn't they give me MY day. My ONE day of the year?
It is ALWAYS about them. And then when it is about me, people are too caught up in their own shit to even care if I have a good day or not.